I'm An Ignorant American

[kathleenpwn3dme]

Things have been good for the most part. Katy and I keep getting better and better, and I think it's safe to say I've never been happier with anyone. But, now to analyze that, I'm not sure if me being so happy with her is such a good thing. I'm worried about how unsure our future is. We had what I thought was a pretty solid plan, to move back to the city and be poor together. It's a bit of a taboo subject for her and I now because she mentioned that she might be going to Paris for a while to pursue the modeling thing even further. I've always been a very head on person, I don't like being led through the dark like this. I can't help but be afraid that I'm going to get hit with something out of no where and not know how to react. I'd even feel better if I knew for sure that she was going to Paris for sure, just so I could make plans around it. I had made alot of plans for the city (a job, found a decent apartment, etc etc), but I guess that's all for nothing now? I guess the point of this rant is just to say that, even with all the bitching I just made, I don't mind. It all seems worth it, and if anything, it makes me cherish her that much more, just because of the unknown factor. Which is why I spend as much time as possible with her. I mean, I went and saw that Herbie: Fully Loaded movie with her and her little cousin for Christ's sake.

Just so I don't end this on an angsty note, Lindsay Lohan's jugs are marvelous, but Katy's are better and I love her.