about a girl who loved a boy

[kathleen__marie]

I'll place my hand upon your face
Remember the days we'd lay awake.
your hands were set along with mine
as are bodies moved in perfect time.

I would have paused us at that very moment
So nothing about us would have to be broken.
No hearts. no feelings. no beliefs

I cried that night you slipped away from me.
So calm and relaxed you took it all back.
those smiles ,that kiss and the way you laughed.

I would hold my ears as hard as I could
Not wanting to hear those things that  i should.
that everything would be okay.
But I wanted you back I wanted you back.

I'd rip out my hair till It would bleed.
close my eyes in disbelief
scream at the top of my lungs
hoping one day you'd see what you've done.

But theres nothing left for me to distroy.
this use to be about a girl who loved a boy.

So I couldn't take it I couldn't last
I pulled that trigger so fucking fast
Now I lay here motionless on the floor
no pain. no tears. no him. no more

.... I wrote this .