oh no!
Oh, dear LJ, I turn to you at the moments of my greatest angst. And once again, the circle is coming 'round for me to face you and whine pitifully, "I don't want to go back to school!" I only feel guilt and constant befuddlement about what I am supposed to be doing there. And currently, I feel a sense of dread about returning. I know it's a great place full of great people and wonderful teachers, but for some reason I don't want to go! My head is saying go, and my body's saying no no no! Somebody, give me answers! My mom said I could take a year off, because they have tuition insurance or something, but I don't even know if my scholarship would cancel. I talk about doing this all the time, but I probably never will. Aye me. I like my classes and my professors and friends at school, and everything is great, but I just don't want to go. I can't figure out why. It's like a red velvet cake is sitting on a table with a desert fork, an "eat me!" sign, and a place card with my name on it, but I can't find the place in my belly for it. Or maybe I am afraid of being fat. Sorry to whine. I thought I had resolved my doubts with Oberlin, but I guess I still have them. I want to be grateful for being able to study there, but I just feel guilt.
On another note I miss my friends who have all drifted away to other places (but not out of my heart.) Good thing that Morgan Rosebud is around to empower me as a woman and give me music.
On a better note, Lauren and I are going to SOULSVILLE on Wednesday!!!
On a SAD SAD note, the drive-in might be in danger.
On another note I miss my friends who have all drifted away to other places (but not out of my heart.) Good thing that Morgan Rosebud is around to empower me as a woman and give me music.
On a better note, Lauren and I are going to SOULSVILLE on Wednesday!!!
On a SAD SAD note, the drive-in might be in danger.