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like in my other entry, im still mad cuz i didn't say anything. man boys can b complicated! ad confussing. ad they say girls r. but i guess to him im confussing to him cuz he knows i like him but i dun talk to him ad hes prob used to girls goin up to him ad stuff rather then him come up to a girl. damn this shyness! i say i will but does it happen.. nope... i hate that, i wish i was outgoing around him..im outgoing to everyone else except for him...damn it i feel so stupid sometimes! i guess i will have to make the first move to start things cuz i dunno if he is going to =S well he said he rather have me talk then not talk to him.. so i guess maybe hes waiting i dunno =S i want to just give him a hug lol i know wow a hug.. big deal lol but when it comes to me it is. but i know i have to make it soon though.. but i always think the negative things about me or the negative things he thinks about me. like he prob doesn't want me to do this or ew look at her or somethimng like that but im pretty sure hes not that kind of a person.... yes i do agree wit ariana thinking is bad! but im pretty sure mines in a diff way as wat she had posted in her journal. the sad thing is to i like him so much ad when hes near me or close to me i want to talk to him or say something but then i go blank.. i dunno if that makes sense =S lik im used to guys makeing the first move on me not the other way around. if he started to talk to me then it would be fine i wouldn't be shy but when it comes down to me makeing the fist move then i get all shy about it ad blush =S..but maybe this is away not to get shy! lol.. well it just has to b that one time.. then i can start to go up to him ad stuff.. does that make sence.. i think im rambling on so i better stop lol
the sad thing too is that i miss being in a relationship i know i prob sound desperate but im not. i miss all the cuddling, hugging, the sweet things yu say to one another ad exc.. dun get me wrong i like being single too but i still lik feeling lik someone cares about yu.
anyways had an amazing day! EVERY MONDAY nicole ad i have decided to go on our " lil walks" lol i had a great time today doing that lol it was a blast. ad it was so nice out too today ad tomorrow is suppose to be even nicer! but i hope it doesn't rain =(. well i think im going to go outside ad play some basketball
katherine
p.s just thought of the thought of him reading this right now :| o man... how embarrassing would that be! lol o well w.e i guess he needs to know how i feel lol
love youu xoxo <3