it makes no sense...
I don't know what's wrong with me
Echo was amazing, and emotional, and i realized how much I have to be grateful for, and how miniscule my problems are in comparison to what other people deal with, and what other people keep to themselves and put up with... it made me feel.. stupid for not paying more attention to other people
so I came back, all happy, and somethin snapped.. i think I started to think on shit too much... about my friends, my lack of friends, about my annoying personality, and my not so nice image, and I pretty much dove into a low I can't seem to shake...
it's kinda like one of those anxious feelings, that sits inside and builds, the more you think about it.. and if i was like popular and my fone rang allt he time and i was out doing shit and basically if I was everything I'm not right now, I wouldn't be having these feelings
and it's not like i can just go talk to anyone about this, cause, well, they're probably heard it before... so writing it/typing it makes me feel better for about ten minutes,
so, I haven't felt like this in awhile .. and i really, really want to get away.. and I don't know, I don't belong here
ok, there's my emo journal entry
just needed to get that off my chest