fellings
well I already have Degenerative joint Disease and now I have been told Fibromialga, chronic fatigue syndrome and ta da I was told today by the doctor I have Lupus.
So any hope at all of every having a relationship or to be able to be a normal human and go out or even be able to work for more than a couple hours everyday has not at the age of 42 go the way of dinosaurs.
I really really want to run away and be some where where I don't have to care or think anymore.
I don't know when I will be on the computer again for a while on dial up and cost to much for the connections. Also after being free of depression for over 4years I really really want to sink into that dark hole and never come up again. for the moment until I get a grip on the new things wrong with my body and make a decision if I want to be treated medically for it or if I just want it it runs it course.
So any hope at all of every having a relationship or to be able to be a normal human and go out or even be able to work for more than a couple hours everyday has not at the age of 42 go the way of dinosaurs.
I really really want to run away and be some where where I don't have to care or think anymore.
I don't know when I will be on the computer again for a while on dial up and cost to much for the connections. Also after being free of depression for over 4years I really really want to sink into that dark hole and never come up again. for the moment until I get a grip on the new things wrong with my body and make a decision if I want to be treated medically for it or if I just want it it runs it course.