I love you John
I just watched "Nowhere Boy" which I had been dying to see since it came out in the UK. I had really high expectations because the trailer was so exciting. The movie fell flat for me. Aaron Johnson is adorable and was fabulous at playing Lennon but I felt like they didn't really develop the anger he had for so man years when he first met. The movie was slow and the John/Julia relationship felt incestuous and odd. *Edit: I know the comment about John thinking about shagging his mum but the movie made it look the other way around. I felt that type of relationship wasn't really relevant. I mean if you did a movie that last like 10 hours maybe but I rather have seen different relationships. I hoped for more Paul interaction. I think it had great potential but it was wayyyyy to slow and it disappointed me. Oh well! :P
I always feel so sad after thinking about John. I get so angry when ever I think of his death. I think if there is anyone in the world who could understand me, it would be him. I always think the same thing, like in school how come they can never see how smart I am? I'm clever, but no one never notices. It's not like people listen to my ramblings or actually care about my opinion on anything. I'm better than this, I always think and I just want to get out of here and go somewhere where I don't feel so oppressed all the time. I just constantly feel like I'm something more and I fantasize all too much about rock n' roll and the exciting life that I'd love to live. Whenever I hear a John Lennon song, I think "Yea, he totally gets me." I love that about music because he probably couldn't give a shit about some screwed up chick who worshiped his music but in my deluded fantasies I believe he does. So for that, thank you John Lennon.
I'm not making much sense right now. I need to stop typing when I'm on sleeping aids.