rusting glass
i feel so disconnected. i hate that and i realized the only reason that i hadn't been feeling lonely before was because the separation hadn't occured. the absence of my phone ringing makes me mad. he's not supposed to call anyways but i still want him to. its reassuring. so much pressure to do stuff lately, like get in shape and take those damn sat 2's, do well on exams. i took off all my jewelry, but i can't take off my necklace. its my cleansing method. its not helping that im listening to pete yorn singing i have to wander through this world alone. i hate feeling lonely and this is why i didn't want to do it. but its done. how depressing my night will be wrapped in my pottery barn comforter and crying