Happy Due Date to my darling son

[katestine]

I deeply regret not updating this journal: there have been so many precious moments that can never be caught on film, whether because I don't have a camera at my fingertips, or the light is too dark, or because some things are just ephemeral. I miss his little squeaks from the NICU, which became bleats shortly after he got home. I miss the way he

Comments

[gmpe]

You are a great mom, doing a tough job.

I'm glad your mom found breastfeeding easy. I know that for many it is not. Asking for help and getting support from a lactation consultant is a great step. If you find the one you're working with isn't helpful, there are others. It's great to hear things are "so much better" now.

I expect you feel less connected to him at your parents' because you can be. Because that's the time it is safe to disconnect and focus on yourself. That's ok! Also, I found, especially with #2 where I started without a reserve, how I felt about my kid changed a lot over the first four months. I beat myself up about it for a while, but realize now that in those first month, I wasn't in a space for things to feel "like they should" and that that all did come, just a bit later.

If you can make a moment to do so, write the nurse who was so helpful a note of praise. She will appreciate it immensely. If you can do it while those emotions are fresh, it will mean even more. It doesn't need to be long.

You're figuring it out, just as quickly as any new parent does. You are awesome!

[katestine]

I think you hit it on the nose, about not having a reserve.

Thanks.