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sooo SCREW LIVEJOURNALL!!!! i had a whole thing typed out, but to use the stupid rich text, deletes it all. fuckers, i dont even wanna type it again. but whatever..i will sure why not.
sooo this could possibly be one of the hardest times in my measly 18 years. so i suppose its pretty significant. my first love..<3. so i guess when u hold something soo close to ur heart for so long, when it slips away it just tears that part away with it. right now i feel like im laying in the middle of a white room bleeding endlessly waiting for a butcher to come and take the rest of me to feed to the hungry dogs. (dogs are the freakinggg worlddd) buttttttttttttt hurting is inevitable in life. i guess i should have seen it coming. =( i keep waking up with these cold sweats terrified, no more like dreading the day coming on. i just wanna lay n hide n watch sweet november, walk to remember, and mr deeds over n over. but i cant. so i wont. back to school i went. day wasnt too bad. only cried 3 times. better than the past few days i suppose. im bein pretty open..hmm. o well. i miss it so much, so much that sometimes i find it hard to breathe n i need to stop and catch my breath. but i need to look at what i miss. you know? sometimes when there are problems you never know what can come of them. maybe someday things will work out. but, idont know. i dont wanna talk anymore.
-katie