memories..
Man everytime I come back to this thing... I can't help, but look and see how much I have written down about the bullshit that had gone on in the past. It really makes me happy to know that I have gotten through it all.
Let's see what's new. My Uncle Paul and Aunt Sandy came into town and Sheila had to butt her ugly self in the mix. I'm just tired of it. Is having to see her worth seeing my Dad? Right now I'd say that's pretty questionable. My Mom seems to think that I don't want to go see him because she thinks that I think she will be mad.. and that's not the case at all. I put forth an effort to call.. I wrote him about how I felt.. I gave him the numbers.. I did my part.. I did MORE than my part. SO when is it his turn to finally say I fucked up.. and talk to me again? HE hasn't done ANYTHING. And I'm expected to be the one to drive over and see him on his birthday? No. I'll show him the same respect he shows me. End of story. I'm not going out of MY way when he left.
Speaking of my Mom she's doing pretty good. She said to me the other day "I think we won't get along when he moves in." Speaking of John of course. And that really has been bothering me. I feel like I can't move on in my relationship because she just fell out of one. But that's not what I want.. or what John wants.. So.. what can I do? Pick and choose? Make two people unhappy to suit one? Or vise versa? I don't know.. hopefully things will come to a better understanding by May-ish. I mean don't get me wrong my Mom really likes John, but I think she's afraid that when he moves in there won't be anymore time with me and her. I guess I can understand that, but I won't allow that to happen.. and she should know that.
Speaking of John.. things are.. beyond amazing with him and I. We'll be hitting the 2 year marker January 24. He is moving in right after school ends. He turns 18 January 6. I'm just really excited. He's more than I could ask for. I'm not sure if we'll move out of the apt together or what.. but I guess only time will tell.
School is good. I'm pretty tired of it, but that's how I get towards the end of the semester. It's like everything is due, but it's already been so long and I just don't want to do it. lol Hopefully my grades will come out to be pretty good. Next semester I start up in my psych major. Pretty scary. lol I realized I probably won't graduate in 4 years either because I have to work full time.. in order to get insurance. So.. blah. That sucks. Plus I have to go to grad school.. and no telling where that's going to take place. Lots of big decisions needing to come up about school.
Work is okay. Eleonor took the Spanish Teacher position.. so I'm back to rotator.. no telling when. This summer I have no clue what they are doing with me, but I figure if they hire John.. they can stick him in waterpark.. possibly Kids Club and I'd be a full time rotator. Eh.. wouldn't be so bad. My sister has an amazing class, but most of them are moving up in January =[ boo. Kendall is at Creme and it's awesome. I really like seeing her more often =] Plus we have like mucho classes together too. *yay!*
Friend wise.. they are all pretty good. My best friend is pregnant. I.. admire her for what she is doing and her being the bigger person. I admire that she's taking responsibility for her actions. [i know i'd be a chicken shit lol] She's just got a lot going on right now.. and I just hope that in the end everything turns out okay. She's going to have a beautiful child and i'm very excited for her. Plus.. she's going to have a pretty kick-ass Godmother if you ask me. haha
Well.. that's all for now. I've written my book for this time of the year. Most likely i'll write again around new years or christmas. We'll see. Good luck to you all! Love you guys!
kT~
Let's see what's new. My Uncle Paul and Aunt Sandy came into town and Sheila had to butt her ugly self in the mix. I'm just tired of it. Is having to see her worth seeing my Dad? Right now I'd say that's pretty questionable. My Mom seems to think that I don't want to go see him because she thinks that I think she will be mad.. and that's not the case at all. I put forth an effort to call.. I wrote him about how I felt.. I gave him the numbers.. I did my part.. I did MORE than my part. SO when is it his turn to finally say I fucked up.. and talk to me again? HE hasn't done ANYTHING. And I'm expected to be the one to drive over and see him on his birthday? No. I'll show him the same respect he shows me. End of story. I'm not going out of MY way when he left.
Speaking of my Mom she's doing pretty good. She said to me the other day "I think we won't get along when he moves in." Speaking of John of course. And that really has been bothering me. I feel like I can't move on in my relationship because she just fell out of one. But that's not what I want.. or what John wants.. So.. what can I do? Pick and choose? Make two people unhappy to suit one? Or vise versa? I don't know.. hopefully things will come to a better understanding by May-ish. I mean don't get me wrong my Mom really likes John, but I think she's afraid that when he moves in there won't be anymore time with me and her. I guess I can understand that, but I won't allow that to happen.. and she should know that.
Speaking of John.. things are.. beyond amazing with him and I. We'll be hitting the 2 year marker January 24. He is moving in right after school ends. He turns 18 January 6. I'm just really excited. He's more than I could ask for. I'm not sure if we'll move out of the apt together or what.. but I guess only time will tell.
School is good. I'm pretty tired of it, but that's how I get towards the end of the semester. It's like everything is due, but it's already been so long and I just don't want to do it. lol Hopefully my grades will come out to be pretty good. Next semester I start up in my psych major. Pretty scary. lol I realized I probably won't graduate in 4 years either because I have to work full time.. in order to get insurance. So.. blah. That sucks. Plus I have to go to grad school.. and no telling where that's going to take place. Lots of big decisions needing to come up about school.
Work is okay. Eleonor took the Spanish Teacher position.. so I'm back to rotator.. no telling when. This summer I have no clue what they are doing with me, but I figure if they hire John.. they can stick him in waterpark.. possibly Kids Club and I'd be a full time rotator. Eh.. wouldn't be so bad. My sister has an amazing class, but most of them are moving up in January =[ boo. Kendall is at Creme and it's awesome. I really like seeing her more often =] Plus we have like mucho classes together too. *yay!*
Friend wise.. they are all pretty good. My best friend is pregnant. I.. admire her for what she is doing and her being the bigger person. I admire that she's taking responsibility for her actions. [i know i'd be a chicken shit lol] She's just got a lot going on right now.. and I just hope that in the end everything turns out okay. She's going to have a beautiful child and i'm very excited for her. Plus.. she's going to have a pretty kick-ass Godmother if you ask me. haha
Well.. that's all for now. I've written my book for this time of the year. Most likely i'll write again around new years or christmas. We'll see. Good luck to you all! Love you guys!
kT~