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I've said this before, several times, in fact, over the last year or so: I need to be alone.
For once in my goddamn life, I need to be on my own. If you consider yourself a friend--at all--don't let me even think about dating anyone. Truth is, I'm no good for anyone right now. I'm simply not ready for it. And I need this break. It's gotta be a long one.
I knew this when I started seeing Johnny. I knew this when I started seeing Erik. But I let myself try it out, anyway, and look where it's gotten me? I've broken two people's hearts, they've hurt me as well, and no one is happy.
I know I can't blame it all on myself, but if I was a bit more self-reflective and stuck to what I initially felt in my heart, none of this mess would have ever happened.
Erik was special to me, though, and I can't say I regret my time with him, even though, in the end, things didn't turn out well.
I just need to breathe.
For once in my goddamn life, I need to be on my own. If you consider yourself a friend--at all--don't let me even think about dating anyone. Truth is, I'm no good for anyone right now. I'm simply not ready for it. And I need this break. It's gotta be a long one.
I knew this when I started seeing Johnny. I knew this when I started seeing Erik. But I let myself try it out, anyway, and look where it's gotten me? I've broken two people's hearts, they've hurt me as well, and no one is happy.
I know I can't blame it all on myself, but if I was a bit more self-reflective and stuck to what I initially felt in my heart, none of this mess would have ever happened.
Erik was special to me, though, and I can't say I regret my time with him, even though, in the end, things didn't turn out well.
I just need to breathe.