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I keep having dreams about ex boyfriends. They've been good and bad. I don't know what they mean, exactly, but it shouldn't really be too hard to figure out. While it's obviously important to have a good connection with someone you're with, what has always been essential to me is just being with someone. It's going to take me a while to get used to this feeling of being alone.
So my mind and my heart are going through where they've been, who they've been with. And they miss everyone, all of them. Ah, this is new...
While scary, it actually feels good. It's right.
I broke up with Johnny and suddenly the guilt left me. A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. He treated me well, for the most part, until the end, when he said some very hurtful things that made me realize, finally, that he wasn't for me, anyway.
This is probably the most awkward time of my life, but somehow, also the most rewarding. If I choose to look at it that way.
And I will. I'm trying.
So my mind and my heart are going through where they've been, who they've been with. And they miss everyone, all of them. Ah, this is new...
While scary, it actually feels good. It's right.
I broke up with Johnny and suddenly the guilt left me. A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. He treated me well, for the most part, until the end, when he said some very hurtful things that made me realize, finally, that he wasn't for me, anyway.
This is probably the most awkward time of my life, but somehow, also the most rewarding. If I choose to look at it that way.
And I will. I'm trying.