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theres something in me that says i just made the biggest mistake of my life but i want a friend right now not a boyfriend. call me crazy but my mental stability was slipping and i just need some time right now. and if it turns out i did make a mistake then i hope i can fix it. but i probably wont. i hate hurting people with all my heart and i wish that i never would have to. i hate myself for hurting people that i love dearly. but i need to put myself back together again and find my thoughts and what i really want. i broke way too easily this time i wasnt strong like i should have been. so ill find my strength and ill try to be there for everyone again and take back on the burdens i know how to handle. but this one i didnt know how to handle so i broke into a million peices and i didnt have anyone to put me together again. i need someone whos stronger than i and that can pick me right back up when i fall. but its kind of hard for someone to pick up someone else when their falling too. im sorry.