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Ahhh.... life. Leaving for college is getting me. A month from tomorrow I will be starting an entirely new life, different from anything I have ever know. I'm scared, excited, sad...so mixed up. I feel rushed. I want to spend time with my family, my school friends, my youth grou friends, my camp friends, and I'll never have the time to do it all.
I guess I just want to be reassured that I will be missed. That I will leave my mark on those around me and that even if we don't keep in touch they will miss me as much as my heart already aches at the thought of loosing all of them. I don't want to be reassured that I will make new friends and will be perfectly happy at RC. I know that already. I just don't want to feel like the past 18 years of my life were wasted. I want to know that I'll keep in touch with some people and some good relationships will survive despite the distance.
Anyhow, I'm not, in Jeb's words, as emo as I sound. I'm excited about the time I have left and bursting for the future. I just will miss you all.
I guess I just want to be reassured that I will be missed. That I will leave my mark on those around me and that even if we don't keep in touch they will miss me as much as my heart already aches at the thought of loosing all of them. I don't want to be reassured that I will make new friends and will be perfectly happy at RC. I know that already. I just don't want to feel like the past 18 years of my life were wasted. I want to know that I'll keep in touch with some people and some good relationships will survive despite the distance.
Anyhow, I'm not, in Jeb's words, as emo as I sound. I'm excited about the time I have left and bursting for the future. I just will miss you all.