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xkatexmcgrathx: (10:09:50 PM) pfffffftttt I'll show you lonely.
TLS: (10:10:00 PM) what's up?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:10:06 PM) nothin'
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:10:07 PM) bored
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:10:16 PM) I really really want starbucks
TLS: (10:13:42 PM) stupid east meadow closed our starbucks!
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:15:39 PM) yeah
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:15:56 PM) theres one across from nassau colli
TLS: (10:16:17 PM) oo that's true
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:16:29 PM) and and in the lev targe
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:16:31 PM) t
TLS: (10:17:26 PM) they have one in target?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:17:38 PM) ahha yeah
TLS: (10:17:52 PM) oh wow...i thought they only did that at borders
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:18:09 PM) nahhh
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:18:38 PM) ughh if i had a car. i'd be sitting in the starbucks right now writing a pretend novel.
TLS: (10:19:36 PM) sigh
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:20:35 PM) I might be going tomorrow to one wif Erica. Shes the only person willing to go places wif me.
TLS: (10:22:41 PM) well, my grandmother always said...if you've got one good friend in the whole world, you're blessed
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:22:57 PM) awe
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:23:29 PM) butters just says "no. stop. shut up. nobody likes you."
TLS: (10:23:36 PM) wow...that's mean
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:23:56 PM) yeah..
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:24:13 PM) all i do now is sit around my house
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:24:55 PM) tonight i had to go out wif the rents and erica invite me to a show
TLS: (10:25:13 PM) that stinks
TLS: (10:25:17 PM) i'm sorry
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:25:34 PM) yeah
TLS: (10:26:57 PM) how long has this been going on?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:28:03 PM) since august when all the college students went away
TLS: (10:28:22 PM) ooo yeah...i guess that makes sense
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:28:39 PM) yeah
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:29:03 PM) then it out worse when the high school started.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:29:16 PM) Butters gets invited everywhere.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:29:27 PM) After HS ends, we might be moving.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:29:38 PM) People wanna throw HIM a going away party.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:29:58 PM) "Everyones gonna miss Butters! Hes so awesome."
TLS: (10:30:07 PM) i can see why you're upset
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:30:20 PM) yeah..
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:30:31 PM) and its people saying it to ME.
TLS: (10:30:47 PM) i hate it when they do that!! that's like so rude!
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:30:57 PM) And I go "yeah....because everyone loves him."
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:31:12 PM) "We'll miss your parents too!!! And Kassie!!"
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:31:15 PM) Uh, Hi?
TLS: (10:31:24 PM) oi vey
TLS: (10:31:53 PM) well...they might think it's implied that they're gonna miss you
TLS: (10:32:04 PM) but still...it's like...hello? right here!
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:32:43 PM) yeah
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:35:15 PM) It just...God it hurts so much when people who're MY friends too tell me how amazing my brother is and crap. Than go about how much more hes gonna be missed.
TLS: (10:35:32 PM) i know...it really really sucks
TLS: (10:35:54 PM) and i'm sorry you have to go through that
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:35:55 PM) yeah
TLS: (10:36:23 PM) what do you think could help make things better?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:37:17 PM) Dissappearing.
TLS: (10:37:40 PM) you or him?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:37:47 PM) Meeee.
TLS: (10:38:00 PM) yeah...probably not the best option
TLS: (10:38:09 PM) it's even more boring
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:38:14 PM) pft no
TLS: (10:38:40 PM) are you still working at the animal shelter?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:38:46 PM) no
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:38:51 PM) i got let go
bTLS: (10:39:29 PM) oo sorry to hear that
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:39:37 PM) yeah..
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:39:43 PM) after i did
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:40:27 PM) people were like "GET A JOB AT CALVARY!!! OR VOLUNTEER THERE AS THE YOUTH LEADER SO WE HAVE SOMEWHERE TO HANGOUT!!"
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:40:29 PM) I was like
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:40:42 PM) "they'll laugh and say "NO"
TLS: (10:41:17 PM) i don't think they would laugh......that would be rather rude
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:41:46 PM) eh s'how i think about things
TLS: (10:42:05 PM) ?? what was that?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:42:28 PM) S'how I always think about things.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:42:56 PM) Most of the time the worst happens. I have bad luck.
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:43:39 PM) When you've been picked on your whole life the first thing that comes to mind is doubt
TLS: (10:44:44 PM) that's true...people in this world can be such jerks...but there are also many that, thank God, are better than that
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:45:07 PM) yeah..
TLS: (10:47:13 PM) have you thought about getting a job somewhere that a lot of people your age work? do you think that would help
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:47:26 PM) no
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:47:47 PM) 'cause at the shelter i was friends wif the adults
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:47:58 PM) i cant make friends wif people my age
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:48:03 PM) its impossible
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:48:13 PM) kids my age cant stand me
TLS: (10:48:31 PM) why do you think that?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:49:15 PM) it just happens
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:49:24 PM) all my friends are older and younger than me
TLS: (10:50:29 PM) ooo
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:50:54 PM) mostly guys
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:51:11 PM) so my family thinks i'm a homosexual
TLS: (10:51:24 PM) sigh...darn sterotypes
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:51:31 PM) yeah
TLS: (10:53:47 PM) well, just to let you know...don't know if it means anything...i would still love you the same even if you were gay (not saying that you are, just making the point)
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:54:11 PM) yeah i know
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:54:14 PM)
TLS: (10:54:26 PM) what are youthinking?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:55:32 PM) ?what'am i gonna do wif my life?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:55:45 PM) where'am i going?
TLS: (10:55:54 PM) yeah...
TLS: (10:56:28 PM) do you have any ideas about where you want to go?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:57:00 PM) somewhere where people'll wanna still hang out wif me
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:57:04 PM) be my friend..
TLS: (10:57:13 PM) yeah, definitely
TLS: (10:57:37 PM) so you feel like most of the people you thought were your friends are not really your friends?
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:58:19 PM) yeah
xkatexmcgrathx: (10:58:28 PM) like they only talk to me out of pity
TLS: (10:59:14 PM) can you think of a few that genuininely are your friend because they want to be?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:01:47 PM) not anymore
TLS: (11:02:28 PM) so you think every single one of your friends is friends with you out of pity?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:02:53 PM) yup
TLS: (11:03:11 PM) do you think that's realistic?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:04:46 PM) most of the time
TLS: (11:05:27 PM) what do you think can be done to change that?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:05:47 PM) nothing..
TLS: (11:06:12 PM) how about we remove the nothing and the disappearing categories from this question
TLS: (11:06:27 PM) and instead, brainstorm
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:07:16 PM) like what?
TLS: (11:08:12 PM) are ther places you could go to meet new people? maybe at a job? or at a church? or at shows?
TLS: (11:08:42 PM) whether they're a little older or younger, doesn't really matter, as long as they're within your age range
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:09:57 PM) people dont wanna meet me, or hangout.
TLS: (11:10:31 PM) do you think maybe that's a gross over-generalization of the entire human race?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:12:17 PM) no
TLS: (11:12:39 PM) so you think every single person alive doesn't care to meet you?
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:13:42 PM) basically.
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:14:28 PM) im just here.
xkatexmcgrathx: (11:16:12 PM) i dint have a purpose.