sorry if this entry's too personal

[katelyshmately]

i'm so sick right now it sucks. i tried going to bed but i felt kind of lonely so i called my brother (with hesitation) since i wasn't sure if i actually was up for a conversation. he told me that he's been drinking too much and he hates his life. he's really depressed. already on the verge of tears, i burst out crying. wtf, that sucks. i fucking love my brother so much. he told me not to worry it's not like he's going to smoke or do anything bad for him. and i told him that he doesn't need to drink to make his life feel better, and asked him to please not be like dad. he started crying too and said he would never be like dad. at least i think he was crying, i couldn't really tell cause i was so upset.

whatever, i'm sure in the next few days i won't have a mad headache and a pile of tissues on my desk. then maybe i won't be so sensitive about everything.

besides all that yesterday was mad rad fun. summer nights are so good.