On the eve of my last day in the country...
...and I'm spending it writing in my Live Journal. Probably because I won't have time to do it tomorrow. I have to wake up at 4:30 on the morning of our departure so I will be early to bed tomorrow night. Not like tonight. Tonight is for staying up late, unpacking and laying stuff out for my trip to Jamaica, reading Pride and Prejudice, thinking about friends and family, worrying, not worrying, thinking about love. These are the things that have been, and will soon, on my mind.
I leave for Jamaica on Saturday. In a little more than 24 hours. I will be gone from here for two and a half weeks. I was nervous about it when I thought we would be gone for three, but when I found out that we were only going for a little more than two, I got really upset that we weren't going for longer. I have a terrible feeling that after Jamaica, this summer is going to suck. I will be working like a dog taking care of Grant from about 7:30 every morning till rather late at night...something like 8:30. Those are 13 hour days, people. And I'll only be making $6.50 and hour. I know I should be grateful that I have a job, but I just don't want to become a workaholic this summer and not get a chance to see people I love. I didn't get to spend nearly enough time with Skyler, who I love so much it hurts but I feel like if Mom decided to move to Austin, I will lose him. There simply wasn't enough time with Sonya, whom I also love dearly and am very glad that I got to spend any time with her at all. We have to fulfill, Sonya, Europe Tour-Summer 2007. It has to happen.
And of course Mom and I spent time together, irritated each other, and then fell right back into being best friends, sisters, and so much more.
Mmmm, the Beatles are playing on my iTunes right now. Let It Be, to be precise. I love that song. It reminds me of high school, back when I was goofy and sweet. Before the desire to grow up and move away from all this had taken over my soul and started to gnaw at all I still cherished inside of me. I miss Arkansas New Years and breath-taking piano player Mark, who I thought I would marry. I miss making out in the park. Long walks with Mom in the morning. Laughing in the rain with friends. Late nights in the theatre.
It's funny how you tend to reminisce when you're alone.
It's also funny how an ex can really annoy you and make you wonder what you ever saw in him, however long ago your relationship happened. Has he really changed that much? Or has it been mostly me? I know we both have, but DAMN, how can two people who were once so alike become so different in the matter of a few years. It makes me glad we didn't try to force what wasn't there longer than we did.
If you want a post card from Jamaica, you need to send me your address on AIM (katelynsu07) before tomorrow night so I can write it down before I go.
Until June 4th-I love you all!
I leave for Jamaica on Saturday. In a little more than 24 hours. I will be gone from here for two and a half weeks. I was nervous about it when I thought we would be gone for three, but when I found out that we were only going for a little more than two, I got really upset that we weren't going for longer. I have a terrible feeling that after Jamaica, this summer is going to suck. I will be working like a dog taking care of Grant from about 7:30 every morning till rather late at night...something like 8:30. Those are 13 hour days, people. And I'll only be making $6.50 and hour. I know I should be grateful that I have a job, but I just don't want to become a workaholic this summer and not get a chance to see people I love. I didn't get to spend nearly enough time with Skyler, who I love so much it hurts but I feel like if Mom decided to move to Austin, I will lose him. There simply wasn't enough time with Sonya, whom I also love dearly and am very glad that I got to spend any time with her at all. We have to fulfill, Sonya, Europe Tour-Summer 2007. It has to happen.
And of course Mom and I spent time together, irritated each other, and then fell right back into being best friends, sisters, and so much more.
Mmmm, the Beatles are playing on my iTunes right now. Let It Be, to be precise. I love that song. It reminds me of high school, back when I was goofy and sweet. Before the desire to grow up and move away from all this had taken over my soul and started to gnaw at all I still cherished inside of me. I miss Arkansas New Years and breath-taking piano player Mark, who I thought I would marry. I miss making out in the park. Long walks with Mom in the morning. Laughing in the rain with friends. Late nights in the theatre.
It's funny how you tend to reminisce when you're alone.
It's also funny how an ex can really annoy you and make you wonder what you ever saw in him, however long ago your relationship happened. Has he really changed that much? Or has it been mostly me? I know we both have, but DAMN, how can two people who were once so alike become so different in the matter of a few years. It makes me glad we didn't try to force what wasn't there longer than we did.
If you want a post card from Jamaica, you need to send me your address on AIM (katelynsu07) before tomorrow night so I can write it down before I go.
Until June 4th-I love you all!