Update!
Well, the last few days haven't been bad at all. I've lost seven or eight pounds, which i understand is mostly water weight. But either way, helps to keep me going, yeah? I've been staying under 500 calories a day. Today, i was at 110 total. I would eat a little more, but i just feel sick. I'm not even hungry. Bad news, last night, i binged on ALL the leftover pizza and chocolate. I think that may be why i was so strict on myself today. Who knows? To make it worse, my mexican neighbor came over, and i was watching America's Next Top Model. My mom mentioned to him how i wanted to be a model (which isn't true really). First thing to come out of his mouth when my mom leaves is that i'm not as pretty as the girls on the show and i'm probably too big to be a model. ouch. I'm just going to try to turn that comment into motivation. All i wanted to do was bawl my eyes out, but i didn't because i understand he just says what he thinks. He doesn't realize that it hurts people. Anyway, i've been reading Wintergirls again. I really love that book for some reason. I don't know why, but it helps me sometimes. Well, I'm done rambling.
stay strong<3
posting this in communities too probably, in case you see this repeated.