updates sortof
i havent posted and actuall update in a long time. a mix between nothing to say or no time to say it. i told my kids that my last day was dec 2. at first they were all kinda quiet but didnt hate me to much. OH but it gets worse lol. they all were talking yesterday and me ease dropping a bit to makes sure my group of 16 4th graders were having an appropriate conversation heard every little peice of there plans to make me stay. it started out kind of unusual all of my kids came in put there bags down and sat at their table completely silent they didnt hit or push of scream anything. this is something i have tried and failed to acomplish in the past. we started role check and got done in like 2 minutes instead of 15. courtney comes up and starts rubbing my sholders while i am going over what we will be doin for the day. Still not a peep. i tell them to line up to wash their hands for snack and yet again another miricle they actually walk to the door with out a sound. my chin was on the floor by this point. they all washed their hands iwth out 1 problem. this includes my 14 3rd graders. slowly their plan spread to all 60 kids. by the end of the day monday all of my kids were quiet and attentive. WOW! blew my mind. tuesday i came in and i got the same results. i didnt know how to react. finally one of my kids came up to me and broke my heart. he asked me if now that they were all behaving if i would stay. that got me. tears just started rolling. I HAVE NEVER CRIED IN FRONT OF MY KIDS. after telling him i couldnt stay and that i loved them so much for influencing the others to come up with a good plan and that i would miss them all a great deal i began to get the siolent treatment. if they couldnt be good and get me to stay then they just werent going ot talk to me. by thursday they one i was the most worried about was the only one not talking. by thursday evening he was screaming in my face telling me that he hated me for leaving him and that he would always hate me for leaving him. he told me he wished i would leave now because he didnt want to see me again. yet again i cried. GOD THIS WEEK HAS BEEN HARD.