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i am so tired... last night was sooo much fun. name out of the hat show... lol it was great bizah and i normally play columbia and maggie together. well when we drew we drew brad and janet so yeah we still ended up looking like we were making out and when we didnt know what we were doing we just felt on each other. it was awesome... WE HAD 144 PEOPLE LAST NIGHT IT WAS AWESOME. the croud was so great. I have to say it ammanda is kick ass at selling those damn glow stick you are so great ammanda i love u to peices. lol i wish i new your secret. ssso... everything has been kinda going weird lately. we were supposed tobe moving in 2 weeks but since the last house things went umm... wrong with that then we havnt really found anything of interest. i need to find this house just for my own sanity but i havent had time to pursue it the way i should. this month is so damn busy. the bad thing is i have been so damn wrapped up in things with rocky and work that my parents think i am neglecting everything that is "important" they dont understand that this is what is important to me. i have decided that i really want to switch jobs... i have to wait for a few weeks but i need something closer. i mean alot closer. driving 130 miles a day it killing me on gas and i am only splitting it with my mom. not to mintion that if i dont get away from so many kids i am going to have a mental breakdown... i mean more so than i already have. i have been soo stressed out lately that i cant really control my reactions to people anymore. they eigther sound really bitchy(more than normal) or really winey (more than normal) im running off of fake energy again lol. they other night i broke down and took 2 sleeping pills cuz i hadnt sleeped since saturday and i only got like 2 hours of sleep with the sleeping pills. not to mention being stressed out makes me really horny... like i need to play like every night or i go crazy and there is noone that i can play with everynight at the moment. oklike yall needed to know that lol. but it takes so little these days to get me going. it used to take so much and i had so much control lol where did it all go its no fair lol. ok sorry enough about my umm conrtol issues lol. so its gonna be kinda weird and financialy draining here for the next few months. i mean new house, new car, new job. god its like im starting a new life. well i kinda am but yeah. not to mention i really need to start school. like really soon. im loosing my drive for much of anything. but it should all work out soon. i hope anyway loves ya and good night