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my dad is pathetic. i can not live there anymore. he is such an asshole. ive been putting up with him being mean all week and this morning i couldnt take it so i cracked it back at him and it did not end nicely. i really do hate him. i dont even think much of him as a dad. he never talks to me about anything, never gives me a hug or says he loves me. He would rather go down the pub and get drunk and feel sorry for himself. i feel like a big disappointment to him. i feel like everything i do is never enough. i just dont understand what im doing wrong. its bullshit. and the worst thing is that i feel really bad for yelling back him this morning, i feel like shit. and i know i shouldnt but i do. i know no ones parents are perfect but my dad is really fucked up. i cant even be bothered to go on about this anymore i feel like shit and im sick and im at work trying not to look upset. fuck.