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ok so today is the day that grades are due.... I also have to get a root canal done at 1pm today...
SOOO depending on how grades come back... the root canal could be the highlight of my day. That is sad.
In other news. We had our baby shower on Saturday. It was tons of fun! I got to see family that I hadn't seen in a long time and everyone made me feel so loved by all of the nice things they said. I definately did too much friday and saturday because my feet swelled up like flinstone feet and my blood pressure was crazy high. I really need to be more careful. Sometimes it's hard to remember that I really am sick and that everything I do affects not only me, but Elijah... guess it's time to start thinking like a Mom.
Which leads me to how old I feel now. Matt and i decided 2 years ago that we wanted kids, and pretty much everyone knows that we lost a baby last summer so our journey to parenthood has been different than a lot of peoples... but to say you want kids and to say that you're going to be a mom are two COMPLETELY different things. It's so strange to me. I've known that I was pregnant since February... and now here we are with October around the corner and i hear myself saying "I'm going to be a mom" but it doesn't sound like me. Id on't know how to describe it, but I'm sure it's all normal to feel liek I am not ready for this. I'm very fortunate to have a great family to help us out and i'm sure all of my instincts will come out after he's born, but it's just all so crazy....
ANYWAYS... i gotta put baby stuff away and clean the house before my dentist appointment!!
SOOO depending on how grades come back... the root canal could be the highlight of my day. That is sad.
In other news. We had our baby shower on Saturday. It was tons of fun! I got to see family that I hadn't seen in a long time and everyone made me feel so loved by all of the nice things they said. I definately did too much friday and saturday because my feet swelled up like flinstone feet and my blood pressure was crazy high. I really need to be more careful. Sometimes it's hard to remember that I really am sick and that everything I do affects not only me, but Elijah... guess it's time to start thinking like a Mom.
Which leads me to how old I feel now. Matt and i decided 2 years ago that we wanted kids, and pretty much everyone knows that we lost a baby last summer so our journey to parenthood has been different than a lot of peoples... but to say you want kids and to say that you're going to be a mom are two COMPLETELY different things. It's so strange to me. I've known that I was pregnant since February... and now here we are with October around the corner and i hear myself saying "I'm going to be a mom" but it doesn't sound like me. Id on't know how to describe it, but I'm sure it's all normal to feel liek I am not ready for this. I'm very fortunate to have a great family to help us out and i'm sure all of my instincts will come out after he's born, but it's just all so crazy....
ANYWAYS... i gotta put baby stuff away and clean the house before my dentist appointment!!