why try
lately ive been feeling really shity...whats new...the thing is i dont know why? i use to be depressed all the time i always thought if i was just prettier...or if i just had my grades under control i wouldn't be so unhappy all the time...and things have been getting better...but i still don't feel good...i wasted all that time crying because i didn't think i was pretty enough or what not and in reality it doesn't even matter because nobody notices me anyway...i think people just take me for granted..."lets only be nice to kari when we feel like it..she doesn't care"...well you know what...i do care. i never feel that im good enough for anyone...i hate when people are mean...just stop!...this is so strange how this is coming out all of a sudden...ive always felt this way but i never said anything about it...i wonder if anyone really cares about me...really?...i feel like im some invisible person.i hate high school why was i in such a hurry to go there? in 8th grade i was so excited! yay school is going to be easy..dances...new boys...balahh blahh blahh...what the fuck was i thinking? ever since lauryn left i don't know how to express myself...i use to tell her everything..now i can't...i wan't someone that i can trust..like i can just tell things to that wont try to preach to me and just shut up and listen...and when im done they wont tell..that seems to be a problem for people...don't ask me why its not that hard...yea i doubt any one will read this (surprise surprise) cuz its so fucking long. GOSH im done.
I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME!
out past currfew: hey hey..can you hear anything i say
KaRi me AwAyY: im feeling unwanted its not what i wanted
yea that should be my new theme song....