i just wanna live....
soo i suppose i'm about due for an update....
i just got done playing "karaoke revolution" on playstation 2 with my little brother and my niece. seriously the greatest game i've ever played. my confidnece about my singing ability and rised so much in the past 3 hours...i am so good at that game...and i love noah and olivia so much. i haven't spent some quality family time with them in a while.
i am updating right now because lindsey is so pathetic, she sends me texts and calls me and tells me to update my journal so she has something to read. even though she sees me more than any of my friends, she's convinced there's something that she doesn't know....she did make the absolute best comment while driving around tonight..."i'm so depressed, i wanna kill myself. but i'm so pathetic, i wouldnt' kill myself yet. i will only kill myself after i have sex, so that i wont die a virgin...." hilarious.
so shy guy shawn totally made up for neglecting to play gwen stefani the other day. he sure did give linds and me a shout out on the radio tonight....we were so giddy we decided we should be in 5th grade again. i called people to tell them to listen to the radio to hear it. once again, pathetic me. lol buti loved it.
today is natalie's, libby's, and wendy's birthdays...huge shout out to them because i love them so much and hope they have great birthdays.
the other night my 35 year old sister sara came out to marcella's with me. she has no idea about me, but i'm guessing she does now, lol....she had such a great time, and we got real drunk. she did ask one of the drag queens where they put their penis'....kinda funny, but it was a serious question.
i went to ellicotville last night and spent the night with some fun girls. carissa, ashley, and colleen are so much fun. i love them.
i have to clean my room....like for real, its disgusting.
tonight there was a confrontation between some of my animals. 2 of my cats were fighting, and then one of my dogs got involved, and attacked my cat Leo. I was sleeping at the time, and wake up to my mom screaming and looking for Leo, and i opened my eyes and there was leo in my room choking and coughing up more blood than i have ever seen in my entire life. We rushed hiim to the vet, and he is staying there overnight. We're pretty sure he's gonna be alright, they think his jaw might be broken, but maybe not. he's heavily drugged and "resting comfortably"....
i wish i was heavily drugged and resting comfortably...
my high school basketball team is doing well in the playoffs and plays tomorrow at ECC. talkin to them brings back those feelings that i wwould do anything to go back to. i'm so happy for them, and i hope they keep it up...i'll give katie a shout out, cause i know she will love it...she is making me so proud the way she is playing, and i have the upmost confidence that she will be a huge factor in her team continuing to win. lets go dogs.
i am supposed to have a date with pook and griff tomorrow. i hope we hang out. i miss the summer days and randomness oh so much.
in other news, in the last couple weeks, i have a lot of time with a new person in my life. I am actually trying to let myself go and open up, because i think she might be worth it. she makes me so happy, and tells me i'm beautiful, and truly cares about me...something i haven't had in such a long time. it feels so good to have someone that's willing to give me their whole heart, and take care of me. its wonderful to have someone feel for me what i feel for them. i don't wanna screw this up, and i don't wanna shut her out and push her away, just cuase i'm scared. i don't wanna deny my feelings just because i still love someone else. maybe this is what i need, maybe this will actually go somewhere....i can't wait until my wake up call in the morning....
i'm gonna go watch the rest of nick at nite as usual and go to bed....with a smile on my face for the first time in awhile........
peace everyone.
i just got done playing "karaoke revolution" on playstation 2 with my little brother and my niece. seriously the greatest game i've ever played. my confidnece about my singing ability and rised so much in the past 3 hours...i am so good at that game...and i love noah and olivia so much. i haven't spent some quality family time with them in a while.
i am updating right now because lindsey is so pathetic, she sends me texts and calls me and tells me to update my journal so she has something to read. even though she sees me more than any of my friends, she's convinced there's something that she doesn't know....she did make the absolute best comment while driving around tonight..."i'm so depressed, i wanna kill myself. but i'm so pathetic, i wouldnt' kill myself yet. i will only kill myself after i have sex, so that i wont die a virgin...." hilarious.
so shy guy shawn totally made up for neglecting to play gwen stefani the other day. he sure did give linds and me a shout out on the radio tonight....we were so giddy we decided we should be in 5th grade again. i called people to tell them to listen to the radio to hear it. once again, pathetic me. lol buti loved it.
today is natalie's, libby's, and wendy's birthdays...huge shout out to them because i love them so much and hope they have great birthdays.
the other night my 35 year old sister sara came out to marcella's with me. she has no idea about me, but i'm guessing she does now, lol....she had such a great time, and we got real drunk. she did ask one of the drag queens where they put their penis'....kinda funny, but it was a serious question.
i went to ellicotville last night and spent the night with some fun girls. carissa, ashley, and colleen are so much fun. i love them.
i have to clean my room....like for real, its disgusting.
tonight there was a confrontation between some of my animals. 2 of my cats were fighting, and then one of my dogs got involved, and attacked my cat Leo. I was sleeping at the time, and wake up to my mom screaming and looking for Leo, and i opened my eyes and there was leo in my room choking and coughing up more blood than i have ever seen in my entire life. We rushed hiim to the vet, and he is staying there overnight. We're pretty sure he's gonna be alright, they think his jaw might be broken, but maybe not. he's heavily drugged and "resting comfortably"....
i wish i was heavily drugged and resting comfortably...
my high school basketball team is doing well in the playoffs and plays tomorrow at ECC. talkin to them brings back those feelings that i wwould do anything to go back to. i'm so happy for them, and i hope they keep it up...i'll give katie a shout out, cause i know she will love it...she is making me so proud the way she is playing, and i have the upmost confidence that she will be a huge factor in her team continuing to win. lets go dogs.
i am supposed to have a date with pook and griff tomorrow. i hope we hang out. i miss the summer days and randomness oh so much.
in other news, in the last couple weeks, i have a lot of time with a new person in my life. I am actually trying to let myself go and open up, because i think she might be worth it. she makes me so happy, and tells me i'm beautiful, and truly cares about me...something i haven't had in such a long time. it feels so good to have someone that's willing to give me their whole heart, and take care of me. its wonderful to have someone feel for me what i feel for them. i don't wanna screw this up, and i don't wanna shut her out and push her away, just cuase i'm scared. i don't wanna deny my feelings just because i still love someone else. maybe this is what i need, maybe this will actually go somewhere....i can't wait until my wake up call in the morning....
i'm gonna go watch the rest of nick at nite as usual and go to bed....with a smile on my face for the first time in awhile........
peace everyone.