im a fucking basket case
Im tired, so tired.
I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of the pain. I can't, I can't, and yet I fucking can't do it. I have enough pills to do the job and I'm a chicken shit. I can't cry anymore. I get more therapy and take meds than most people combined. what now? I'm tired. I can't go on this way. It's been too many years and I don't want to continue. If I tell my doctors, they'll put me in a 3 day or 14 day hold in a place that won't help.
I'm scared, scared of living this way. If I didn't have my kitties I would definitely do it. I love them so much. My little babies need me, but I can't stay. I have nothing to offer this place. Even if I did, I'm in pain, both physically and mentally. Nobody gets it. Everyone thinks they can fix me, but no one has done it yet.
I'm tired
I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of the pain. I can't, I can't, and yet I fucking can't do it. I have enough pills to do the job and I'm a chicken shit. I can't cry anymore. I get more therapy and take meds than most people combined. what now? I'm tired. I can't go on this way. It's been too many years and I don't want to continue. If I tell my doctors, they'll put me in a 3 day or 14 day hold in a place that won't help.
I'm scared, scared of living this way. If I didn't have my kitties I would definitely do it. I love them so much. My little babies need me, but I can't stay. I have nothing to offer this place. Even if I did, I'm in pain, both physically and mentally. Nobody gets it. Everyone thinks they can fix me, but no one has done it yet.
I'm tired