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I'm really missing my brother right now. Who would have ever thought that we would be so close? I really love Sheila and very happy that she married my brother. I'm feeling guilty again about giving her a hard time in the beginning. Even though I bared my soul to her and appologized over and over, I still feel bad. Everytime I talk to him, he sounds so sad. I know he still thinks about Jerry and wishes we could be family again.
I'm so sad right now. I miss my mom and dad. I feel so guilty about hating them for so long. I wish I would have known how horrible their own childhoods were. Looking back, I realize they did the best that they could. I still have a huge hole in my heart, and it hurts like hell. What do I do? I take so many medications and I still hate life and want to die. What will it take for me to be happy? Maybe I need to get my ass back into therapy. I really wish I could see Terza, but I don't have the money for her sessions.
I've got to get out of this funk before it's too late.
I'm so sad right now. I miss my mom and dad. I feel so guilty about hating them for so long. I wish I would have known how horrible their own childhoods were. Looking back, I realize they did the best that they could. I still have a huge hole in my heart, and it hurts like hell. What do I do? I take so many medications and I still hate life and want to die. What will it take for me to be happy? Maybe I need to get my ass back into therapy. I really wish I could see Terza, but I don't have the money for her sessions.
I've got to get out of this funk before it's too late.