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It's been far too long since I've written, but I don't have time, or should I say I don't want to be bothered with an update.
It's just right now I'm feeling that weird feeling I get right before I spiral into depression. I'm feeling scared, alone and don't know what to do. I was looking at Justin & Amanda's myspace page and feeling sad. How come my uncle doesn't want a relationship with me? Actually I don't blame him. Now I feel fucking stupid for extending my hand in friendship. For what those little cocksuckers have done I should never ever want to see them again. I really hate them, but I don't hate Jerry. I guess I'm feeling sad because I don't have family.
Sheila's grandma is most likely going to die in the next few days. She had a massive stroke and is not responding to anything. She didn't want a feeding tube and has a DNR. She was so incredibly sad and I really had nothing to say to her. What is wrong with me? How come I can't comfort her?
Cindy & Kim are gone from myspace and so is Olivia. My first thought is "are they not wanting to be friends" or are they just deleting accounts? I hate when my mind goes into this damn mode.
Please keep strong and try to keep on track with meds./
It's just right now I'm feeling that weird feeling I get right before I spiral into depression. I'm feeling scared, alone and don't know what to do. I was looking at Justin & Amanda's myspace page and feeling sad. How come my uncle doesn't want a relationship with me? Actually I don't blame him. Now I feel fucking stupid for extending my hand in friendship. For what those little cocksuckers have done I should never ever want to see them again. I really hate them, but I don't hate Jerry. I guess I'm feeling sad because I don't have family.
Sheila's grandma is most likely going to die in the next few days. She had a massive stroke and is not responding to anything. She didn't want a feeding tube and has a DNR. She was so incredibly sad and I really had nothing to say to her. What is wrong with me? How come I can't comfort her?
Cindy & Kim are gone from myspace and so is Olivia. My first thought is "are they not wanting to be friends" or are they just deleting accounts? I hate when my mind goes into this damn mode.
Please keep strong and try to keep on track with meds./