Waylaid by jackassery......
Current mood: aggravated
I cannot even begin to try to express the disappointment and frustration this week has given me. I don't know how much more I can take. Seriously. I probably shouldn't be drinking this weekend in this mood, but I also want to be able to sleep/relax/take a deep breath and so far I've not been able to do any of those things for several days. Apologies in advance if I drunk call/text/smooch you this weekend ppl.
On top of all of this, my parents are flying in for an entire week! I love them, but I know I'll be expected to keep them entertained while they're here-esp. mom because dad will be in Canada Monday and Tuesday and I'll be obliged to spend my precious summer vacation days hanging out with mom. It's ok-turns out I don't have plans those days as I thought I had. I should know better by now than to get excited about things. Fuck-I might as well go into work at this point, cut my losses, and save the paid days off for if I get sick or something.
So yeah-no stove/oven until next week because the repair guy is coming Tuesday morning(this hurts soooooo much because I've been SO looking forward to getting it back), probably no real vacation on my vacation days, they're doing construction here at work…..above my office…….with a jackhammer/drill. I can't hear ppl on the phone, which is such a huge part of my job. Plus it's just uberannoying. Oh-and I can't hear my music either(it's not allowed to be that loud anyway). Just when you think they're done making noise and you call someone, it starts back up. I can't get anything done and it's frustrating as hell-I mean, I already have some minor hearing loss as it is(too many concerts standing in front of the speakers in the front rows).
Just lots of little things adding up and annoying the crap out of me all at once and making me a little cranky. My patients have all been nasty this week here-and the picnic they had for us yesterday kind of sucked. I was really looking forward to the free ice cream bars in the afternoon and when I got mine back to my office, it was a milkshake with a stick in a bag.
So here's your warning again, I'm getting absolutely drunk this weekend and if I do drunk text/dial you or send you photos on your phone that look like parts of my body or anyone else's for that matter, I am SO sorry in advance(feel free to save it and forward it to me when I sober up-I'll need a laugh)!!! OH! Or if I get all smoochy with you! Crap. I forgot about that part. Probably not the best time for me to be smoochy with ppl either-there's only a couple ppl I'd even WANT to really smooch anyway, but when I drink I get a little……..indiscriminant. But I know for sure that smooches would make it all better(even if it is just temporary-I'd settle for temporary right now actually-I'm at my desk nearly in tears it's that bad-nothing a good nap won't cure I know, but still).
F***.
HAVE I NOT BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH SHIT THIS YEAR?????? I swear-just when I let my guard down and relax a little bit, things blow apart. I think the lack of stove/oven is what's hurting the most right now(that & the lack of cool plans Mon/Tues/Wed). I mean, I've only gone without one for over a year. I SO used to loooooove cooking!!! I was good at it too! I've forgotten how to do anything in the kitchen-I have turned culinarily(is that even a word?) retarded. Maybe by winter I'll be back to where I used to be, whipping up casseroles and comfort food for the cold weather. Again, I should know by now that I cannot bother looking forward to any little thing at all ever. I shouldn't get so excited that I can't sleep the night before anything ever again. I need to pickle that bit of my brain that allows my youthful exuberance out-that part of me that's fearless at trying new things and anticipating stuff. I'll work on that this weekend, I promise-the pickling that is.
I am actually excited for tonight, though. I'm not looking forward to how I'm getting home in the middle of the night all drunk and alone. Oh-and I've already picked out 2 possible outfits too: the catholic schoolgirly corsetty top with jeans and sneakers or the basic olive capris and black T. I really love the corset though-and I don't wear it out often-only twice so far(to the Breeders show and Flashback). Plus it was expensive-it deserves to be taken out. I wear the capris and T all the time. Hmmmmm-pigtails or no? I can't decide. I'll bring the camera though-and I have some other pics to post here as well from my phone and from the last several months. I'll probably have that be my big fun tomorrow afternoon-editing & uploading/posting pics until I have to meet my folks at the airport. I can't really complain about spending time with them-I get spoiled rotten(mostly by mom)! I don't know what we'll do for fun during the week, so if anyone has suggestions, let me know. We've done all the touristy stuff a million times, so we need something new/different.
I don't know what's wrong with me today-in less than 30 minutes I'm off work for 5 days.........
Currently listening :
Danse Macabre
By The Faint
Release date: 2001-08-21
I cannot even begin to try to express the disappointment and frustration this week has given me. I don't know how much more I can take. Seriously. I probably shouldn't be drinking this weekend in this mood, but I also want to be able to sleep/relax/take a deep breath and so far I've not been able to do any of those things for several days. Apologies in advance if I drunk call/text/smooch you this weekend ppl.
On top of all of this, my parents are flying in for an entire week! I love them, but I know I'll be expected to keep them entertained while they're here-esp. mom because dad will be in Canada Monday and Tuesday and I'll be obliged to spend my precious summer vacation days hanging out with mom. It's ok-turns out I don't have plans those days as I thought I had. I should know better by now than to get excited about things. Fuck-I might as well go into work at this point, cut my losses, and save the paid days off for if I get sick or something.
So yeah-no stove/oven until next week because the repair guy is coming Tuesday morning(this hurts soooooo much because I've been SO looking forward to getting it back), probably no real vacation on my vacation days, they're doing construction here at work…..above my office…….with a jackhammer/drill. I can't hear ppl on the phone, which is such a huge part of my job. Plus it's just uberannoying. Oh-and I can't hear my music either(it's not allowed to be that loud anyway). Just when you think they're done making noise and you call someone, it starts back up. I can't get anything done and it's frustrating as hell-I mean, I already have some minor hearing loss as it is(too many concerts standing in front of the speakers in the front rows).
Just lots of little things adding up and annoying the crap out of me all at once and making me a little cranky. My patients have all been nasty this week here-and the picnic they had for us yesterday kind of sucked. I was really looking forward to the free ice cream bars in the afternoon and when I got mine back to my office, it was a milkshake with a stick in a bag.
So here's your warning again, I'm getting absolutely drunk this weekend and if I do drunk text/dial you or send you photos on your phone that look like parts of my body or anyone else's for that matter, I am SO sorry in advance(feel free to save it and forward it to me when I sober up-I'll need a laugh)!!! OH! Or if I get all smoochy with you! Crap. I forgot about that part. Probably not the best time for me to be smoochy with ppl either-there's only a couple ppl I'd even WANT to really smooch anyway, but when I drink I get a little……..indiscriminant. But I know for sure that smooches would make it all better(even if it is just temporary-I'd settle for temporary right now actually-I'm at my desk nearly in tears it's that bad-nothing a good nap won't cure I know, but still).
F***.
HAVE I NOT BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH SHIT THIS YEAR?????? I swear-just when I let my guard down and relax a little bit, things blow apart. I think the lack of stove/oven is what's hurting the most right now(that & the lack of cool plans Mon/Tues/Wed). I mean, I've only gone without one for over a year. I SO used to loooooove cooking!!! I was good at it too! I've forgotten how to do anything in the kitchen-I have turned culinarily(is that even a word?) retarded. Maybe by winter I'll be back to where I used to be, whipping up casseroles and comfort food for the cold weather. Again, I should know by now that I cannot bother looking forward to any little thing at all ever. I shouldn't get so excited that I can't sleep the night before anything ever again. I need to pickle that bit of my brain that allows my youthful exuberance out-that part of me that's fearless at trying new things and anticipating stuff. I'll work on that this weekend, I promise-the pickling that is.
I am actually excited for tonight, though. I'm not looking forward to how I'm getting home in the middle of the night all drunk and alone. Oh-and I've already picked out 2 possible outfits too: the catholic schoolgirly corsetty top with jeans and sneakers or the basic olive capris and black T. I really love the corset though-and I don't wear it out often-only twice so far(to the Breeders show and Flashback). Plus it was expensive-it deserves to be taken out. I wear the capris and T all the time. Hmmmmm-pigtails or no? I can't decide. I'll bring the camera though-and I have some other pics to post here as well from my phone and from the last several months. I'll probably have that be my big fun tomorrow afternoon-editing & uploading/posting pics until I have to meet my folks at the airport. I can't really complain about spending time with them-I get spoiled rotten(mostly by mom)! I don't know what we'll do for fun during the week, so if anyone has suggestions, let me know. We've done all the touristy stuff a million times, so we need something new/different.
I don't know what's wrong with me today-in less than 30 minutes I'm off work for 5 days.........
Currently listening :
Danse Macabre
By The Faint
Release date: 2001-08-21