NEVER WASHING AGAIN!
Wow. I am absolutely shell shocked. Last night Dad took me to London (wooohooo, love that city baby!), and took me to a seminar for the Fulbright (people who paid for us to come). John Kerry was the guest speaker. I guess my Dad knows his daughter too (she's really smart, Yale grad, studying in London in the college of Exotic Medicine and hygiene, really, really smart). But we got to listen to him talk for about two+ hours. I thought it would be dull, but he is an excellent speaker, and is very funny. But I truly now despise the American media. I had really thought him to be a medocre candidate, but he is such an amazing, motivated person. He has very, very strong opinions about enviromental issues and the no child left behind act. He started that you know! I know it sounds dumb, but after hearing him actually speak (small audience, 150ish, he even entertained questions afterward!) I regret even more having Bush as a president. It also saddens me that Kerry won't be a presidential canditate again. Some of these very strong opinions and theories of his were never conveyed to me (mostly by the Bee, a liberal newspaper, imagine what other newspapers said!!), or any of you. It's scary how much they control us. But anyway I met lots of very important people last night, and had a revelation. I was invited to apply to be a member of this organisation (meaning they choose you to be a student/scholar ambassador), and it was at the moment I realized that I am part of a very, very elite society. I was born into it. My father worked his way, astoundingly, into it. My mother was born into it, and rejected it, building her own place, like her mother before her. But I was born into it. Because I am a part of this society, these people will not let me fail. So it's depressing and releaving at the same time, firstly that I should not be so afraid of failure because they are not going to let this happen (so many of them are heads of big charity ogranisations, it's great!!). But it's depressing in two ways, that I won't getto prove myself, and that I am part of a society I have always rejected and fought against. I know it's dumb to call them elite, but they are (I do not consider myself to have the social skills, yet, to be one of them), above them are untouchables, and below the elite was where I considered myself. But I am one of them. It amazes me how much my parents sheltered me; how I grew up jealous of certain people who I now realize I am, and always have been, so much more priveldged than. It astounds me, what my parents have done for themselves. I am, on one hand, sad to be (not even a social climber, don't have to do that!) born into it; but glad, I will be more easily able to achieve what I want to. And because of this, I thank god my parents have always taught me to work towards the good of the whole, and that I am not wholly selfish. I'm just glad I'm me, and just awe-struck at being where I am. I honestly never thought I would be one of them. But I am, I'm a kid with connections to Senators and bussiness tycoons, thank god for social graces and good impressions. Thank god, now I know, as long as I try, I can't fail. They can't let me fail, imagine how that would reflect upon them. . . .