The fuck?
Oh lovely, I went and started a bloody war.
In case people missed the very heavy suggestions, my point there was that all that shit? It's over. It's done. I'm still a little miffed that Arch decided to burn the bridge. And if, by some random chance, he ever did see this, I wanted him to realized that I still would like to talk to him about what the hell happened that I deserved the silent treatment. But failing that, I don't care. I made a post from my point of view because rather than give me his own, he disappeared, and I really really want to know his point of view. The desire to know his point of view is the ONLY reason this is still something relevant in my life. So stop telling me this is one sided unless you want to tell me the other side. I am completely in the dark and confused by this all. It's the last thing preventing my from moving on, and I essentially have moved on anyways.
The relationship itself? It was toxic. It was evil. It was an abomination that makes Bella and Edward in Twilight look like the dictionary definition of a healthy relationship. I'm pretty sure we both acknowledged this. It had it's good side. Once upon a time. But most of it was toxic. Was it his fault? Was it mine? Well I can tell you who's fault we thought it was, and generally the answer was "not mine." In case that's too cryptic for people, we were both at fault. There was no cheating. If there was even a slight bit of "cheating", it went both ways. We both had our next lover lined up when we finally gave up the ghost.
Do I blame Lauren for anything? No. She didn't steal him, nor do I think she encouraged him to stop talking to me or that she has any way to make him start talking to me again. Her only connection to this at all is that she is currently my only remaining connection Arch and to this chapter of my life, and I believed she was cutting me off her list. But hell, she's right, she might not have been referring to me at all. In her position though, I probably would, but then I'm making assumptions about her that I don't really have a right to make. Maybe I'm just stressed, I think all my friends are secretly plotting against me right now. Or secretly hate me. Or something. Yeah, I'm stressed.
Huzzah for stirring up a maelstorm of drama when attempting to end something. Did I sound particularly malicious there or something? I was aiming for contemplative. As in "It happened, and now it's probably ending."
In case people missed the very heavy suggestions, my point there was that all that shit? It's over. It's done. I'm still a little miffed that Arch decided to burn the bridge. And if, by some random chance, he ever did see this, I wanted him to realized that I still would like to talk to him about what the hell happened that I deserved the silent treatment. But failing that, I don't care. I made a post from my point of view because rather than give me his own, he disappeared, and I really really want to know his point of view. The desire to know his point of view is the ONLY reason this is still something relevant in my life. So stop telling me this is one sided unless you want to tell me the other side. I am completely in the dark and confused by this all. It's the last thing preventing my from moving on, and I essentially have moved on anyways.
The relationship itself? It was toxic. It was evil. It was an abomination that makes Bella and Edward in Twilight look like the dictionary definition of a healthy relationship. I'm pretty sure we both acknowledged this. It had it's good side. Once upon a time. But most of it was toxic. Was it his fault? Was it mine? Well I can tell you who's fault we thought it was, and generally the answer was "not mine." In case that's too cryptic for people, we were both at fault. There was no cheating. If there was even a slight bit of "cheating", it went both ways. We both had our next lover lined up when we finally gave up the ghost.
Do I blame Lauren for anything? No. She didn't steal him, nor do I think she encouraged him to stop talking to me or that she has any way to make him start talking to me again. Her only connection to this at all is that she is currently my only remaining connection Arch and to this chapter of my life, and I believed she was cutting me off her list. But hell, she's right, she might not have been referring to me at all. In her position though, I probably would, but then I'm making assumptions about her that I don't really have a right to make. Maybe I'm just stressed, I think all my friends are secretly plotting against me right now. Or secretly hate me. Or something. Yeah, I'm stressed.
Huzzah for stirring up a maelstorm of drama when attempting to end something. Did I sound particularly malicious there or something? I was aiming for contemplative. As in "It happened, and now it's probably ending."