Exhaustion and Who I am
So for the past few weeks I have been exhausted. Im not quite sure how this came to be but I am and its kinda sad. Especially when I pass out at 845 something I havent done since grade school. Part of it I know is cause I am stressing and holding all sorts of things/emotions/thoughts within me. Part of it is a complete unknown. Which kind of sucks cuz I had someone tell me that Im not as fun as I normally am. I dont like being a downer nor do I like being this exhausted. So something has to change and I think I know what but I cant really do anything about it.
Which brings me to who I am. Who I use to be I guess you could say. I realized not too long ago that I kinda changed my whole persona to suit someone and now, almost a year later I am finally almost back to who I was before them. I realized that I changed to suit them and I hated who I had become. So I've decided that if a person cant handle who I am then they just arent worth my time or energy. Why should I change to suit someone else? I shouldnt have too damn it and Im not going to anymore. I liked me as I was before I dated this person. God. So much shit that went wrong was because of this person and I only am now just realizing it. Some times I wish I could go back and change things but then I realized it was a growing experience. An experience I needed to grow. So now I've had it, I can avoid doing something that stupid again.
Now I just need to cure this stupid exhaustion problem I am having. Any recommendations anyone? Cuz seriously I am tired of being tired all the time.
Which brings me to who I am. Who I use to be I guess you could say. I realized not too long ago that I kinda changed my whole persona to suit someone and now, almost a year later I am finally almost back to who I was before them. I realized that I changed to suit them and I hated who I had become. So I've decided that if a person cant handle who I am then they just arent worth my time or energy. Why should I change to suit someone else? I shouldnt have too damn it and Im not going to anymore. I liked me as I was before I dated this person. God. So much shit that went wrong was because of this person and I only am now just realizing it. Some times I wish I could go back and change things but then I realized it was a growing experience. An experience I needed to grow. So now I've had it, I can avoid doing something that stupid again.
Now I just need to cure this stupid exhaustion problem I am having. Any recommendations anyone? Cuz seriously I am tired of being tired all the time.