Ambivalence
Sometimes I have my pioneer moments, and wonder if I should buy a business instead of a house. It would actually cost less right now. Or maybe buy a house in Detroit. Start an urban farm. Or buy a building for my dog rescue.
Sometimes I look at these awesome kitchens, and I wonder if I should go to cooking school. Grill things like the guys at the hibachi places. Sometimes it's cosmetology school because I feel my best when I look my best.
Sometimes I think I should not be buying anything, or buy something small - don't think about what you like, think about the resale, think of it as a place to crash for a few years, as an investment. But then that feels so foreign to me. Because a house should be something you love - a home.
Sometimes I want to buy something in Canton, South Lyon, Wixom. It would be far from my friends. I never see them enough anyway. So that might be bad. But maybe I would make other friends. And I could have the house I love - a little palace, with a yard for Zuma, high ceilings, jetted tub, fabulous kitchen and great room.
I guess I have been wondering.... why some people are so lucky that they get things that just "fit." I felt the "fit" with the Birmingham house I lost. I felt the "fit" when I got my Accenture offer. I haven't really felt many fits other than that.
It's got to be easier than this. You are figuring out what YOU want. It is a subjective question. It is on a topic that you spend 24/7 on. It is a class you've taken for 23 years. Why is it so hard? I am fortunate. I have the means to do this. I have the time to do this. Why is there so much ambivalence?
Sometimes I look at these awesome kitchens, and I wonder if I should go to cooking school. Grill things like the guys at the hibachi places. Sometimes it's cosmetology school because I feel my best when I look my best.
Sometimes I think I should not be buying anything, or buy something small - don't think about what you like, think about the resale, think of it as a place to crash for a few years, as an investment. But then that feels so foreign to me. Because a house should be something you love - a home.
Sometimes I want to buy something in Canton, South Lyon, Wixom. It would be far from my friends. I never see them enough anyway. So that might be bad. But maybe I would make other friends. And I could have the house I love - a little palace, with a yard for Zuma, high ceilings, jetted tub, fabulous kitchen and great room.
I guess I have been wondering.... why some people are so lucky that they get things that just "fit." I felt the "fit" with the Birmingham house I lost. I felt the "fit" when I got my Accenture offer. I haven't really felt many fits other than that.
It's got to be easier than this. You are figuring out what YOU want. It is a subjective question. It is on a topic that you spend 24/7 on. It is a class you've taken for 23 years. Why is it so hard? I am fortunate. I have the means to do this. I have the time to do this. Why is there so much ambivalence?