Is It Truly A "Happy New Year"?
Last year... we were all together... laughing, eating, kissing, partying... but this year it isn't the same. It will never be the same again as long as I live. We have split up... and as much as I tell myself, "It will be okay,... I am over it"... I know it is all a lie. It jut seems so terrible and awful that it took only a summer to destroy over a year's worth of fun times, happiness for a single day, and what I used to wake up every morning smiling about. I know you all are still my friends but why cant we have one last... gang outing with no anger, sorrow, or making one another feel stupid. I would love that just one last time... ya know? Seeing a funny movie we mock the whole way through, battle of the sexes in the arcade, air hockey showdowns... eating like pigs in taco bell or the food court... and shopping for useless items or sexy cloths. I apologize for sounding like a moron and for always repeating myself but it is moments... nights like this I miss the greatness we had. We could always cheer each other up when we needed it... but this year when we need it the most... it is all gone...
A thought for you whom where part of this... why do you think it ended? Loss of contact? Jobs? Or did we all just stop caring?
I will admit though... that beginning brought about a lot of wonderful days I know I (at least) will never forget. If I sound like a twit please tell me and I will stop acting like this. I always had issues involving letting go of that is never coming back and accepting change. That was an important part of myself I will cherish for the rest of my life. I never would have done, said, or acted like I do now if I was with anyone else besides you all. So in the end... I want to thank you all for being a part of my life and a part of me. I truly love you all very much.
...Happy New Year...
A thought for you whom where part of this... why do you think it ended? Loss of contact? Jobs? Or did we all just stop caring?
I will admit though... that beginning brought about a lot of wonderful days I know I (at least) will never forget. If I sound like a twit please tell me and I will stop acting like this. I always had issues involving letting go of that is never coming back and accepting change. That was an important part of myself I will cherish for the rest of my life. I never would have done, said, or acted like I do now if I was with anyone else besides you all. So in the end... I want to thank you all for being a part of my life and a part of me. I truly love you all very much.
...Happy New Year...