Hello Again
So, it's been a while, hasn't it? I stopped using LJ regularly... I suppose not long after I moved back from Austin. I just... didn't feel like it? Had nothing to say? I made a few entries, attempted to start using this again a few times. It never stuck. I think part of the problem is that I put so much of myself into this journal, made friends using this journal... it was this extension of me and I didn't know me anymore. It was like this journal belonged to a girl who had somehow ceased to exist.
But I think I'm ready now.
You won't find any old entries here. I scrapped it all a few months ago when I realized that, everytime I logged in to try to use it again, the ghost of that girl that no longer was resided in those posts. Her smiles and laughter, her love, her very soul, was somewhere in those words and I could not bear the sadness. So I deleted it. All of it. There are a few entries I managed to salvage, a few I made since that time. I kept them, but they're for my eyes only.
New beginnings, right? Or going home? Something. Something good. I know I'm heading that way.