maybe i should
just keep quiet like everyone esle is.
not say a word.
not answer my phone.
and not respond to texts.
tomorrow is my birthday and i just don't even want it to happen.
i just want it to pass as if nothing is really going on jsut like everyother day in my life.
i don't want to see the people i have been looking forward to seeing i don't want anything. just to go back to sleep and avoid everything. stop expecting people to take care of me or to love me.
i need to realize that nothing is real.
you aren't really there for me, i just wish so much that you were/are but no.
nothing is really there and will actally stay there.
NOTHING.
not friends not family no nothing.
i wish you could realize that too sometimes.
someday everything will be erased.
there is nothing we can do except live in the moment and take everything for granted.
why don't you step up?
will you ever?
or will you just always just kind of be "there"
... why do i think you will change and just magically be there for me ONE day... haha
i kid myself.
i try, i call i text i plan
but you close yourself off.
why??
!!!
not say a word.
not answer my phone.
and not respond to texts.
tomorrow is my birthday and i just don't even want it to happen.
i just want it to pass as if nothing is really going on jsut like everyother day in my life.
i don't want to see the people i have been looking forward to seeing i don't want anything. just to go back to sleep and avoid everything. stop expecting people to take care of me or to love me.
i need to realize that nothing is real.
you aren't really there for me, i just wish so much that you were/are but no.
nothing is really there and will actally stay there.
NOTHING.
not friends not family no nothing.
i wish you could realize that too sometimes.
someday everything will be erased.
there is nothing we can do except live in the moment and take everything for granted.
why don't you step up?
will you ever?
or will you just always just kind of be "there"
... why do i think you will change and just magically be there for me ONE day... haha
i kid myself.
i try, i call i text i plan
but you close yourself off.
why??
!!!