bleh
i realized i am a complete failure in friendships/relationships/ and best friendships.
i also realized today that i am terrified of people ditching me and dumping me to the side and running over me... so i do it to them before they can have a chance of hurting me.
i also realized i can't rely on myself at all. i am not mature enough to do ANYTHING on my own... i JAVE to have people right next to me making sure i don't fall... its horrible.
i can't trust myself or rely on myself to keep promises much less to others but even to myself
i feel horrible.
i have not only let down people i TRUELY love, but i let down myself. and i want to apologize to those who i have dragged in my past threw my shit...
i= is not capitalized through any of this bulletin b/c i am so disgusted w/ myself right now i don't "deserve
i also realized today that i am terrified of people ditching me and dumping me to the side and running over me... so i do it to them before they can have a chance of hurting me.
i also realized i can't rely on myself at all. i am not mature enough to do ANYTHING on my own... i JAVE to have people right next to me making sure i don't fall... its horrible.
i can't trust myself or rely on myself to keep promises much less to others but even to myself
i feel horrible.
i have not only let down people i TRUELY love, but i let down myself. and i want to apologize to those who i have dragged in my past threw my shit...
i= is not capitalized through any of this bulletin b/c i am so disgusted w/ myself right now i don't "deserve