no no no no no
i am back to feeling really shitty and really hoping i was not here. and wishing i was dead.
i basically hate my life so fucking much.
today was the first day i ate in 3 days. i thought i could eat last night but i couldn't.
i woke up today shaking i stood up and blacked out on my bed. the phone ringing was what got me out of that state. i tried to eat some yogurt... which was hard then i blacked out again on the couch and woke up to joe calling me on the house phone. i didn't say much b/c i didn't want to scare him. i don't really know how long i was passed out... which kind of scares me...
then i went back to sleep until 4.
my mom threw a bunch of shit at my ie: boxes, dog leashes, dog & cat collars, a remote, and some cd. she KNOWS how to make my day.
i don't get my car back for a while.
i don't know when i get ungrounded and i frankly don't care. the only thing i care about is seeing joe.
and by the looks of everything i don't know when that will happen.
i basically hate my life so fucking much.
today was the first day i ate in 3 days. i thought i could eat last night but i couldn't.
i woke up today shaking i stood up and blacked out on my bed. the phone ringing was what got me out of that state. i tried to eat some yogurt... which was hard then i blacked out again on the couch and woke up to joe calling me on the house phone. i didn't say much b/c i didn't want to scare him. i don't really know how long i was passed out... which kind of scares me...
then i went back to sleep until 4.
my mom threw a bunch of shit at my ie: boxes, dog leashes, dog & cat collars, a remote, and some cd. she KNOWS how to make my day.
i don't get my car back for a while.
i don't know when i get ungrounded and i frankly don't care. the only thing i care about is seeing joe.
and by the looks of everything i don't know when that will happen.