115. all i can say, i shouldn't say
i saw this postcard two days after i was hired. i got scared.
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i don't like how i've been very cryptic with my journal entries lately. i guess its just really hard for me to write matter-of-factly; narratives have always been my weakness. i remember in grade 12 english, we had to write a short piece on historic fiction. the research was easy, but the writing process was grueling. i remember staying up for nights on end just to get it done. i had ideas in my head on how the story goes, but i just can't seem to put them down on paper. i guess i just don't like the process. and i think somehow, i expect the story to tell itself. when i come up with phrases and random blurbs, i delegate the task of the storyteller to the words themselves. i guess its okay to do that sometimes, but it's not really an effective means of communicating ideas to other people.
"the truth about stories is that that's all we are"
- thomas king
its weird that i'm talking about this whole telling stories deal now because father "dry humour" talked about this earlier today. he made a good point in saying that sometimes people don't like telling stories because they don't want to be vulnerable. maybe that's why i don't like storytelling? maybe i think that people can use my stories against me, because after all, it is all we are. and what else would we have if everything that we are is used against us?
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i don't like how i've been very cryptic with my journal entries lately. i guess its just really hard for me to write matter-of-factly; narratives have always been my weakness. i remember in grade 12 english, we had to write a short piece on historic fiction. the research was easy, but the writing process was grueling. i remember staying up for nights on end just to get it done. i had ideas in my head on how the story goes, but i just can't seem to put them down on paper. i guess i just don't like the process. and i think somehow, i expect the story to tell itself. when i come up with phrases and random blurbs, i delegate the task of the storyteller to the words themselves. i guess its okay to do that sometimes, but it's not really an effective means of communicating ideas to other people.
"the truth about stories is that that's all we are"
- thomas king
its weird that i'm talking about this whole telling stories deal now because father "dry humour" talked about this earlier today. he made a good point in saying that sometimes people don't like telling stories because they don't want to be vulnerable. maybe that's why i don't like storytelling? maybe i think that people can use my stories against me, because after all, it is all we are. and what else would we have if everything that we are is used against us?