Bandom Double-Drabble: sanctum sanctorum

[kat_lair]

not really here, still emo and antisocial

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This double-drabble is for rawkenr0ll. It is entirely lacking in porn (sorry?), but this is where the prompts took me so...

sanctum sanctorum - Bandom - Gabe/Pete - R - warning: bdsm (mental, but see prompts)
Prompts: slavery, storage, cages

Comments

[pushkin666]

As always your fic just takes me to the place you're writing about. I can see and feel this. It's very visual. What I find most interesting about this is it's Gabe decision to go to Pete's and his decision to go into the cage. I love that Pete has given him the key.

The two lines that really hit home for me were:-

When his fingers finally close around the steel bars, the relief is sharp enough to hurt.

and

Safe. Gabe is safe now.

Gabe's need is palpable. Love it.

[kat_lair]

Thank you very much for such detailed feedback :)

I love that Pete has given him the key. - This! Yes, because I wanted it to be something Gabe needs, and I wanted it to be his choice. It's control and freedom, voluntarily relinquished.

And I'm really pleased Gabe's state of mind came through.

[pushkin666]

Yes and yes. So very true. It is Gabe's choice to give up his control and freedom. This why I love it.

[moth2fic]

Really evocative. I have no idea why he needs the safety of the cage but I could almost taste his desperation and then his safety.

You seriously have to watch Being Human and see the cage in that and maybe do some kind of crossover. Don't worry - I am going to buy the DVDs.

[kat_lair]

Thank you very much. I'm always more interested in the mental side of bdsm (although the hot sex is fun too!) so wanted to emphasise the need, care and trust.

Ooooh, I'll be first in the line wanting to borrow those DVDs then :D

[rawkenr0ll]

I READ THIS AND LOVED IT BEFORE I SAW THAT IT WAS FOR ME AND WUDGW;UEDFG
THIS WAS AMAZING AND THERE SHOULD BE MORE OF IT. WITH PETE PETTING HIS FACE AND GIVING HIM HIS COLLAR AND KISSING HIM AND CONVINCING HIM HE CAN COME OUT, PETE'LL TAKE CARE OF HIM, ONLY NOT WITH WORDS BECAUSE THAT'S NOT VERY PETE.

DO YOU HAVE AIM? BECAUSE WE SHOULD PLOT SOME STUFF.

CAPS!!!!

[kat_lair]

YOUR CAPS ARE ADORABLE!!!

Whee, omg, I'm really, really excited that you liked this. Yes, it is from the prompts you left several months ago - I've been slow at filling them but I do eventually deliver...

I think maybe you wanted something a bit more porny but the fic just wasn't going in that direction at all and because this angsty mood piece anyway. I've also been talking a lot lately with various people how I'm getting increasingly tired of bdsm fic that is all about the sex. I mean hot sex is awesome, don't get me wrong, but the view where kinky sex is the end all and be all of a bdsm relationship is starting to grate more and more, and that was probably the main reason my mind rebelled at going the gratuitous porn route with this.

Heh, I don't have AIM and rarely use other chat programmes. However, would be happy to plot 'some stuff' with you :D I like very much what you said about Pete coaxing Gabe out of his cage almost like you'd coax a frightened animal...

[rawkenr0ll]

i don't really lack it since i have another irl-kinky ljer who i roleplay with- we have some nice emotion-based kink storylines we write, so i get plenty. i would be HAPPY to tell you all about them if you're interested. :)

yeah, i imagine gabe wouldn't want to come out of his cage until pete has his collar and leash, and then pete unlocks the cage and holds it out and smiles at him and just waits until gabe smiles back and crawls out and lets pete collar him again, and then they don't go anywhere, just sit on the floor and hold each other and breathe. and then eventually pete's like, wanna talk about it? because obviously something happened to get gabe so spooked, he doesn't come over unless he has a reason, and gabe kinda shakes his head and they sit there for a while longer until gabe's smiling again, from having pete's attention and then pete tugs on his leash and they go have some breakfast and pete hand-feeds gabe strips of toast with margarine and honey.

:D

[rawkenr0ll]

and before pete goes to get his collar and leash, right when he first finds gabe in his cage in the morning, there's a little smiling and stroking gabe's face through the bars to wake him up and supportive murmuring, and gabe reaching up to the bars to touch pete's hand and feeling a lot better than he did last night because now he's locked up and can't hurt himself and pete's there.

maybe they have this whole gabe wants to hurt himself because he hates himself/pete's been there before and survived it so now he's mentoring him dynamic, and so whenevr gabe's angry and scared he goes over to pete's with his metaphorical tail between his legs to 1) be restrained and ordered not to do anything stupid and supervised 2) get some supportive, non-judgemental advice and 3) be reminded that he is loved and worthy and all that. they should have a really strong good behavior/reward system so when gabe does something good he's reminded that he's a good person who can succeed etc etc etc.