yay for depression.
I'm having a bloody breakdown.
I just dont want to go to school. I dont want to face the arguing and the bitchiness which I unleashed in my Murray Scheafer class. I dont weant to have to do classes I dont like. I dont want to have to deal with people I dont like. I want to spend more time with my friends and even at work.
I'm never going to be a good designer. I'm just not good enough. I dont get good marks. I dont have the drive. I dont even WANT to work in bloody theatre. I'm only in this programe cuz it's something to do. What the fuck am I doing with my life? What the fuck am I GOING to do?
I'm such a bloody mess. I've burst into tears at least three times this week. I need a mental health day but I can't afford to take one.
I AM working too much, but the problem is I like work better than school. and I can't drop either now. I want to take a year off, but I can't do it this year.
I feel like I'm not good at anything, and everything I'm touching (besides my relationship with Alaval which is somehow surviving and thriving through all this shit) is turning to chaos. I don't think my fellow students or my teachers respect me, and I'm sure I dont deserve their respect.
I want to go to sleep for a month and wake up happy again.
I just dont want to go to school. I dont want to face the arguing and the bitchiness which I unleashed in my Murray Scheafer class. I dont weant to have to do classes I dont like. I dont want to have to deal with people I dont like. I want to spend more time with my friends and even at work.
I'm never going to be a good designer. I'm just not good enough. I dont get good marks. I dont have the drive. I dont even WANT to work in bloody theatre. I'm only in this programe cuz it's something to do. What the fuck am I doing with my life? What the fuck am I GOING to do?
I'm such a bloody mess. I've burst into tears at least three times this week. I need a mental health day but I can't afford to take one.
I AM working too much, but the problem is I like work better than school. and I can't drop either now. I want to take a year off, but I can't do it this year.
I feel like I'm not good at anything, and everything I'm touching (besides my relationship with Alaval which is somehow surviving and thriving through all this shit) is turning to chaos. I don't think my fellow students or my teachers respect me, and I'm sure I dont deserve their respect.
I want to go to sleep for a month and wake up happy again.