How can you tell if he's gay? - Chapter 5
Title: How can you tell if he's gay?
Pairing: Ohyass (others in the future?)
Summary: Okura searched for love... or something... in Johnny's and occasionally found Yasu's ass, but that doesn't mean that they found each other.
Rating: PG (for now, NC-17 later on)
Genre: romance (smut)
Warning: still unbetaed
Chapter 5
The alarm woke Okura way too early for his taste. He didn’t want to face this day, but he knew he had no choice. He had to talk about Yasu with Ryo. He almost fell asleep again though as he didn’t sleep that well. Maybe he did even sleep, he wasn’t so sure.
“Yeah.” He mumbled still half sleeping answering his mobile already aware that it was the wakeup call he often got from one of his bandmates to make sure he was awake. It was ridiculous. He wasn’t the only one who is bad at waking up!
“Aloha~ How did you sleep?”
So this time it is Yasu.
“Okay… no, not really, but okay. N you?”
“Oi! Don’t fall asleep again! I slept just fine~”
“I won’t fall asleep again, don’t worry.” Okay, yawning now isn’t the best way to show that.
“Just fine means about five hours for you, doesn’t it?” And he always says I practice a lot, but he himself plays guitar all night or writes lyrics.
“About… yes, if I was in bed at… and then practicing guitar… and… yes, five hours seems right.”
It’s sweet how he always wants to say everything as correct as possible, calculating the hours through even if it was just rhetorical. I was correct though. Typically Shota!
“You should be more tired always only sleeping that much! But anyway, I should get up now.”
“Yes, you should! See ya~”
How can he be this cheerful that early?!?
Now that the call ended he was weirdly aware of his body. He not only was grinning through the whole talk with Yasu, but his heart couldn’t seem to calm down still. He didn’t even notice how he put his phone to the side. The other fact he noticed when sitting up was that he had a hard-on. Whether it was from the night or the phone call was impossible to say now.
“Bathroom!” He sighed and stood up at last. Today the first person will get to know about my feelings.
Finding the courage to talk wasn’t easy though. Okura sure had a lot of possibilities to drag Ryo away from the others, but that didn’t mean that it would be easy to talk to him. Many people act like it was. All those endless stories about how friendship survives. Always. Never-ending friends no matter what happens. Someone cheats and is forgiven, someone gambles, get violent, falls in love with the other’s boyfriend, commits some kind of crime and in the end everything resolves in that one amazing message of true friendship. Sure he didn’t feel guilty for anything. Love didn’t start on a whim. He followed Yasu’s butt in the beginning, true, but that wasn’t it of course.
The problem never was that he was unsure or only desired Yasu, but it was worse - the feelings he had in the beginning would have been easy to tell his bandmates. Subaru took every opportunity to say it even during interview so that could have been taken with humor. What really bugged Okura was that his feelings grew that much that he couldn’t even take a smirk coming from Ryo. It was way too serious. He didn’t want to just try to work things out or try to date Yasu. It wasn’t vague like that. It was a clear feeling of passion, desire and love.
Sure it took long for Okura to name it like that, but that didn’t shake the truth of it. He always knew that he was attracted to Yasu, but he underestimated how much feelings could grow. Which kind of feelings would be the worst kind wasn’t the question anymore. He lost his chance to show his feelings as they were easier to convey and overcome if that wouldn’t work out. He could have easily dated Yasu years ago and if that wouldn’t work out they could have naturally broken up or if he was refused in the beginning it would have stopped the love he felt now from developing for sure.
But now it was love. That kind of love that couldn’t take it easy and test if it works. If he tried dating Yasu now it felt like it had to be for real.
So now he had to deal with it.
He had to deal with whatever reaction Ryo would give him. At first he had to know how to even explain it, how to show Ryo that it wasn’t something to joke about or be a jerk about. But all those things can’t be planned. He had to wait and see.
“Do you think we should buy an electro-shock-bracelet-thing - whatever - for him? It would help to get him back to concentrate I think.”
“Oh, come on, Yoko, it is a perfect opportunity to pinch him yourself every time so don’t complain, I now you love it.”
“I’m not complaining, I’m trying to find the funniest way to get him to shriek!”
Someone is bound to get annoyed by Yoko and Maru again. Now that is new. Wh- WHAT?!?
“You were right, pinching sure is fun!”
“And I have to compliment you on how amazing you made him shriek! Now that’s a way to have fun!”
“He shrieks like a girl!”
It took a few seconds, but now that conversation made sense. Why else would Yoko and Maru talk over his head while sitting beside him. They could have just taken seat at the other side of the table and talked there, but they had planned loudly how to annoy him. And Yoko had pinched him! Now they were laying their heads on the table laughing at Okura who pulled his chair up again after he had knocked it down with his instant way of standing up. He couldn’t believe how he was able to space out that often lately and how everyone was able to shock him constantly.
“Thanks, I’m awake, I gotta talk to Ryo.” That was my wake up call.
“Come on, don’t pout, it was just for fun!”
But Okura ignored Maru. He had better things to do now than being laughed at, even though he wasn’t angry. They were just trying to spend the break between the photoshooting with him and cheer him up because he must look like hell after he barely slept the whole night.
He left the table and went to search for Ryo who wasn’t really hard to find as he was practicing the new songs on his guitar with Yasu and discussing it loudly. That he was with Yasu was more of a problem. Yasu already thought he wasn’t trusted and if he sent him away or dragged Ryo away it would lead to exactly the same problem. But greeted by Yasu’s smile he decided to do things another way and put a chair in front of the sofa the two were sitting on.
“Hey Yasu! Did you update your jweb?”
“Not yet. You?”
“No, I planned on doing it later, I still don’t know what to write.”
“Isn’t it normally me that’s late?”
“So you updated it already?” Probably the same two or three lines he always uses though…
“Of course I did!” Ryo is proud to post them every time though.
“What did you write?” And Yasu is always curious. How typical.
“Can’t remember. Something. Oi!!! Why are you laughing???”
“Nothing, I am just amazed by how good we know each other after all. You probably wrote that you are giving your best, didn’t you?” From proud to pissed off in less than half a second, even a record for him.
“Cause I DID my best!”
I love to hear Yasu laugh! I’m glad that though they worry a lot about me he can still laugh with me right now. Even if it freaks Ryo out. But probably I should stop or he will be pissed off the whole day and won’t talk with me and I need him right now.
“Of course you are! Wanna come over tonight when the shooting is over? I’ll make you something to eat to compensate my teasing from just now.” When did Ryo ever refuse food?
“Why not?” Even if he sounds pissed off while answering.
“And what about ME~?” Is Yasu cuter when he is laughing or pouting? Hard to tell…
“Some other time, promise.”
“Really? YAY!”
The plan worked. Provoking Ryo sure is easy, no matter which subject you begin with.
After that the mood was better. During the whole shooting you could feel it as well. Okura was in a good mood and so was the rest of the band. Sometimes it can be that easy, but the fact that he has to talk about Yasu didn’t stop bothering him that soon. It was still in his mind, though the possibility of talking about it calmed him at least enough to get back to his normal self who was able to control his feelings for Yasu enough to not show them.
Another chapter... Later than I planned....
Preperations for the university begun and I found so many nice people (I never saw so many freaks at one place! <3 Even people who are into japanese things and also join japanese classes... One of them is a long lost friend of mine even ^^)
After this preperation week I got sick... Still kinda am... This chapter is already longer, but I decided to split it as the next part isn't finished yet and I'm way too much on mediction right now to think...
So this is just me showing that I'm still alive ^^