it is now officially summer....
well, there ya have it folks. my freshman year is officially over. had my last final today in dance app...(which i rocked by the way minus a few slight details)...had breakfast w/ brittany and beah before it at snelling...then had lunch later w/ j-jenna, g-ginna, lauren and jenny. had to say goodbye to them bc they left right afterwards. it was so sad. i miss them already! and whitney...she left yesterday and i feel like i havent seen her in a year. i guess thats what happens when youre used to lookin out your door and into their room for the whole year. then i finished packin up all my stuff...and cleaned the room. man it was frickin disgusting. cant even tell you what all had collected on that floor. ugh. then i checked out and said bye to the roomie....and left.
so moving out made me really sad. believe it or not...i really am gonna miss the dorm life. a lot. i heart brumby. the community bathrooms really arent that bad. the worst part was walkin all the way down the hall to pee or brush your teeth. living w/ 900 other girls was pretty darn fun. im gonna miss cuddling w/ my hallmates...fallin asleep on their futon and waking up at 5 in the AM to peel off my contacts and get back in my bed. whitney or j yellin at me bc i was in their spot lol. ill miss G and her obsession w/ conan and sunflower seeds. and who else besides whitney can you jump on and then they totally collapse? lol. who can say "im a real boy!" like j...or suck me into their room for hours on end when everyone and their mom knows i should be studying. ill even miss mine, laurens and G's walks to stat and lauren saying -"its a great day to be alive!" and of course booty dancin w/ rachel. hayleys distinctive and VERY loud laugh. haha. who knows i might even miss our R.A. yelling at us for being loud during "quiet hours." there were so many awesome girls on our hall...but of course it wouldnt have been the same w/o those few snobby whores to keep things interesting. i dont believe i ever saw miss fohawk crack a single smile in my direction. and her wonderful roomie who yelled really loudly at G and me to shutup! when we were singin aladdin in the hallway. im sad that next year i wont be able to walk up 2 flights of stairs to visit dork and beah or katie and steph....or just up 1 to get sucked into brittany and maggies room for hours listening to maggies neverending, yet always entertaining, stories. lol. im sad that when i look out the door of my room that all i will see is the closed door to my sisters room w/ no one inside to come play w/ me. im gonna miss the grueling brumby hill and the wonders it did for my calves. i may even miss bolton....ok thats pushing it. lol. im gonna miss freshley on monday nights....i get to go back next year as a leader but it wont be the same ya know.
its just that it all went by soooo fast. i mean i thought senior year flew by....but wow. this was about 5 times as fast. it seems like i was just talkin to mateo about how i was so scared and gonna fail out of college. lol well at least that didnt happen. i dont know...i mean as much as it sounds like i am basically depressed that the year is over- im not. at the same time its really good to be home. talk about mixed emotions. i left the dorm not wanting to go home....but then as soon as i got to about old atlanta....i was overcome w/ the feeling of-- mmmmm home. which of course is a wonderful feeling. and i am super excited about this summer....i get to catch up w/ my girlies....lay out...see other old friends...and work at camp- which i am ecstatic about! who wouldve thought i would actually be excited about a job? lol. its madness. but anywhore...
so i went to 722 tonite w/ my madre and her friend andy. it was sooo good. i heart louie giglio so much. hes not coming back next year though...which is really really sad. but exciting at the same time bc the big G-O-D has bigger and better plans in store for him which will be incredible no doubt. but yeah so the message was called the "unthinkable journey." and it was all about how God doesnt just create us and say - hey good luck w/ your life- and then leave us alone to live it out. but instead He is willing and wants more than anything to guide us through it if we'll just let Him. but thats the key factor- if we'll just let Him. then louie went into his whole dealio about why he's leaving and what God has been telling him to do etc.... and this one thought kept circulating in my head:
why do i have to be so human?
its definitely not the first time ive thought this either. it actually comes around pretty often when i actually let myself think it. it just frustrates me so much bc i feel like im in this circle of alternating bt 2 different lifestyes almost. first i'm completely trusting God and seeing Him work in amazing ways in my life bc of it...and loving it....and then drifts in Human-Kathryn who wants to take over and seems to be able to handle everything by her big bad self. except that she knows she cant. and then she falls on her face and into reality which is when she goes crawling back to God. and He always accepts and loves on her and forgives her bc He is perfect. and she realizes how stupid she was acting...and wonders why she "has to be so human." then it all happens again. like a vicious cycle. i suppose that i wouldnt be able to learn from my mistakes if i was totally in check w/ God 100% of the time...but still. its so dadgum frustrating.
man...im thinkin deep tonite. soak it up bc this doesnt happen too often. haha
well on a different note - this w/e should be quite an adventure! hart, finney and i are roadtrippin up to PA to watch the crew nationals- which my beloved emily jean holdorf herself will be competing in. :) the kicker is that we'll be spending the night at finneys house for next year in VA...which has no functioning utilities yet. lol. yes ponder that one.... and imagine all of the insanity that will take place. and get pumped up! haHA
congrats to Bobby Mo for finally getting facebook. now you will all be addicts like the rest of us. hart is well on her way and what can i say...im so darn proud!
im obsessed w/ ciara's new song - "oh." it is so hott.
ok good nite.
so moving out made me really sad. believe it or not...i really am gonna miss the dorm life. a lot. i heart brumby. the community bathrooms really arent that bad. the worst part was walkin all the way down the hall to pee or brush your teeth. living w/ 900 other girls was pretty darn fun. im gonna miss cuddling w/ my hallmates...fallin asleep on their futon and waking up at 5 in the AM to peel off my contacts and get back in my bed. whitney or j yellin at me bc i was in their spot lol. ill miss G and her obsession w/ conan and sunflower seeds. and who else besides whitney can you jump on and then they totally collapse? lol. who can say "im a real boy!" like j...or suck me into their room for hours on end when everyone and their mom knows i should be studying. ill even miss mine, laurens and G's walks to stat and lauren saying -"its a great day to be alive!" and of course booty dancin w/ rachel. hayleys distinctive and VERY loud laugh. haha. who knows i might even miss our R.A. yelling at us for being loud during "quiet hours." there were so many awesome girls on our hall...but of course it wouldnt have been the same w/o those few snobby whores to keep things interesting. i dont believe i ever saw miss fohawk crack a single smile in my direction. and her wonderful roomie who yelled really loudly at G and me to shutup! when we were singin aladdin in the hallway. im sad that next year i wont be able to walk up 2 flights of stairs to visit dork and beah or katie and steph....or just up 1 to get sucked into brittany and maggies room for hours listening to maggies neverending, yet always entertaining, stories. lol. im sad that when i look out the door of my room that all i will see is the closed door to my sisters room w/ no one inside to come play w/ me. im gonna miss the grueling brumby hill and the wonders it did for my calves. i may even miss bolton....ok thats pushing it. lol. im gonna miss freshley on monday nights....i get to go back next year as a leader but it wont be the same ya know.
its just that it all went by soooo fast. i mean i thought senior year flew by....but wow. this was about 5 times as fast. it seems like i was just talkin to mateo about how i was so scared and gonna fail out of college. lol well at least that didnt happen. i dont know...i mean as much as it sounds like i am basically depressed that the year is over- im not. at the same time its really good to be home. talk about mixed emotions. i left the dorm not wanting to go home....but then as soon as i got to about old atlanta....i was overcome w/ the feeling of-- mmmmm home. which of course is a wonderful feeling. and i am super excited about this summer....i get to catch up w/ my girlies....lay out...see other old friends...and work at camp- which i am ecstatic about! who wouldve thought i would actually be excited about a job? lol. its madness. but anywhore...
so i went to 722 tonite w/ my madre and her friend andy. it was sooo good. i heart louie giglio so much. hes not coming back next year though...which is really really sad. but exciting at the same time bc the big G-O-D has bigger and better plans in store for him which will be incredible no doubt. but yeah so the message was called the "unthinkable journey." and it was all about how God doesnt just create us and say - hey good luck w/ your life- and then leave us alone to live it out. but instead He is willing and wants more than anything to guide us through it if we'll just let Him. but thats the key factor- if we'll just let Him. then louie went into his whole dealio about why he's leaving and what God has been telling him to do etc.... and this one thought kept circulating in my head:
why do i have to be so human?
its definitely not the first time ive thought this either. it actually comes around pretty often when i actually let myself think it. it just frustrates me so much bc i feel like im in this circle of alternating bt 2 different lifestyes almost. first i'm completely trusting God and seeing Him work in amazing ways in my life bc of it...and loving it....and then drifts in Human-Kathryn who wants to take over and seems to be able to handle everything by her big bad self. except that she knows she cant. and then she falls on her face and into reality which is when she goes crawling back to God. and He always accepts and loves on her and forgives her bc He is perfect. and she realizes how stupid she was acting...and wonders why she "has to be so human." then it all happens again. like a vicious cycle. i suppose that i wouldnt be able to learn from my mistakes if i was totally in check w/ God 100% of the time...but still. its so dadgum frustrating.
man...im thinkin deep tonite. soak it up bc this doesnt happen too often. haha
well on a different note - this w/e should be quite an adventure! hart, finney and i are roadtrippin up to PA to watch the crew nationals- which my beloved emily jean holdorf herself will be competing in. :) the kicker is that we'll be spending the night at finneys house for next year in VA...which has no functioning utilities yet. lol. yes ponder that one.... and imagine all of the insanity that will take place. and get pumped up! haHA
congrats to Bobby Mo for finally getting facebook. now you will all be addicts like the rest of us. hart is well on her way and what can i say...im so darn proud!
im obsessed w/ ciara's new song - "oh." it is so hott.
ok good nite.