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So i have come to the realization that i must be the most fucked up person in the world... I mean look at me from Medical problems to family life to friends to love life to school.
SO the new drama of my life is friendship. I mean apparently I'm a horrible person casue i'm grouchy when i haven't slept in four days. I mean i put on a good happy act but when i finally fall asleep for an entire hour or so... and get woken up and im not sure what the hell is going on... I'm gonna be a little grouchy. I suppose when all i have had in the last 8 months and who knows maybe longer is meaningless sex i should be pissy, but im not. I mean i suppose when i guy is interested in me and not you and i dont know you like him im supposed to back off... but i don't... cause hey i dont know you like him... or even that you knew his name. When you are a bitch to me i should hold it against you for hours or days the way you do... but i don't. God i just want things to be good... and because it's me they can't be.
SO the new drama of my life is friendship. I mean apparently I'm a horrible person casue i'm grouchy when i haven't slept in four days. I mean i put on a good happy act but when i finally fall asleep for an entire hour or so... and get woken up and im not sure what the hell is going on... I'm gonna be a little grouchy. I suppose when all i have had in the last 8 months and who knows maybe longer is meaningless sex i should be pissy, but im not. I mean i suppose when i guy is interested in me and not you and i dont know you like him im supposed to back off... but i don't... cause hey i dont know you like him... or even that you knew his name. When you are a bitch to me i should hold it against you for hours or days the way you do... but i don't. God i just want things to be good... and because it's me they can't be.