it's just manic
this afternoon i think i had a seriously manic breakdown. I'm not much of a melodramatic person, but today was just plain odd for me. you know when nothing seems alive and nothing has a real reason for being there. and then i thought i needed some form of stimulus but i couldn't think of anything for a good enough shock. *poor kyle* anyway i just wanted to do something that was fun and exciting and destructive. i wish i could do something destructive sometimes.well it finally passed and i'm back to a slightly less cynical and normal self. though i still think there needs to be mroe to do, i'm content with doing very little.