I don't know if it's summer or what..
Today, while I was walking home, I started thinking reasons why I would want a baby. I couldn't think of one. At the same moment I got frustrated, since I felt like it's my duty to have children this young, even though I know that isn't the case. And not wanting a baby felt wrong somehow, but after a while I convinced myself it's my body and my decision after all. And that there's nothing wrong with me.
It's funny, and at the same time, very annoying, that if you announce that a baby would be welcome, people immediately classify you as a baby-boomer, thinking you're living a specific stage of life and are very adult (and almost expecting..) etcetera. I still am a student, I still am fighting with myself (although not as much as I used to), I still am very immature at times and I still have my youth and a need for Experiences. I'm just so freakin' lonely, and maybe thought I'd have a purpose if I had a child. And heck, why not, but I'm not going to have children in at least two years if it's up to me. Kthxbye. So don't expect it from me please.
I'd also love to go and get wasted. Have a great time with great people and get loads of nice memories. Not too long ago I and Santtu were memorizing our (/my) crazy ideas and things done when drunk: A couple of years ago we decided to continue our night after Seurahuone had closed its doors: we grabbed something to drink and headed for an abandoned house BD Then we continued our journey and headed for Härkäpakari for breakfast. What a night... But the craziest ideas are usually the funnest... Eh? :P I'd love to be free to do whatever I want and do crazy things and travel around Tampere / Finland.... Anyone up for it? :)
I've lost a few sizes, btw O__O Last winter I was quite swollen and didn't have but one jeans that fit me. I still didn't want to throw away my old jeans, thought I'd pack them up and drop at UFF or something, but a while ago I realized I fit them again. AND I bought tight-fitting jeans SIZE 27" (there wasn't any size 28") !! I haven't even lost any weight, and all I've changed is that I walk to school every day instead of cycling. I still eat junk food and drink loads of sodas (>:D) It's funny how small change of habits can affect my life so much. My stomach still looks like I'm pregnant though >:/ Damn genes.
It now crossed my mind that maybe I want babies now because of my need to do everything kinda like upside down, and out of the ordinary :D It's so ordinary to "have things ready" for children (travelling first, getting a decent job, maybe even an apartment) that it gives me the creeps.
It's funny, and at the same time, very annoying, that if you announce that a baby would be welcome, people immediately classify you as a baby-boomer, thinking you're living a specific stage of life and are very adult (and almost expecting..) etcetera. I still am a student, I still am fighting with myself (although not as much as I used to), I still am very immature at times and I still have my youth and a need for Experiences. I'm just so freakin' lonely, and maybe thought I'd have a purpose if I had a child. And heck, why not, but I'm not going to have children in at least two years if it's up to me. Kthxbye. So don't expect it from me please.
I'd also love to go and get wasted. Have a great time with great people and get loads of nice memories. Not too long ago I and Santtu were memorizing our (/my) crazy ideas and things done when drunk: A couple of years ago we decided to continue our night after Seurahuone had closed its doors: we grabbed something to drink and headed for an abandoned house BD Then we continued our journey and headed for Härkäpakari for breakfast. What a night... But the craziest ideas are usually the funnest... Eh? :P I'd love to be free to do whatever I want and do crazy things and travel around Tampere / Finland.... Anyone up for it? :)
I've lost a few sizes, btw O__O Last winter I was quite swollen and didn't have but one jeans that fit me. I still didn't want to throw away my old jeans, thought I'd pack them up and drop at UFF or something, but a while ago I realized I fit them again. AND I bought tight-fitting jeans SIZE 27" (there wasn't any size 28") !! I haven't even lost any weight, and all I've changed is that I walk to school every day instead of cycling. I still eat junk food and drink loads of sodas (>:D) It's funny how small change of habits can affect my life so much. My stomach still looks like I'm pregnant though >:/ Damn genes.
It now crossed my mind that maybe I want babies now because of my need to do everything kinda like upside down, and out of the ordinary :D It's so ordinary to "have things ready" for children (travelling first, getting a decent job, maybe even an apartment) that it gives me the creeps.