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What does it take for you to realize how much you hate your life and everything around it? For me 1 single plane ride.
Plane ride 1:
5:30am - I havent been on a plane in literally 8 years almost to the month. I remembered why I liked it. This was tbe best ride of all I'd say..the plane was big as hell..cold as hell...and comfortable as hell.
Plane ride 2:
9:30am - Never been on a small plane such as this one was. I had to go out onto the terminal outside the gate and enter the plane on the step ladder that folds out of it. It was hot..and not so comfortable because the plane was small so the seats were small. The guy next to me was obviously pissed off or something but ended up sleeping the whole hour or so there. It all didn't matter...I was going to be happy for the next week.
Plane ride 3:
9pm - Realization of the fact I was leaving a placee that, by phone and description sounded shitty as hell, but in reality was way better than anything I have here. I looked out the window for a good hour before I realized we were even off the ground. This ride was the realization that I was returning to nothing...I have nothing where I was going and I found this out in full as soon as I stepped onto the plane.
Plane ride 4:
12am - I suddenly realized after being delayed for an hour or so that i had wished the delay was more like a few days. Maybe a few years. While delayed I only wanted to get on the plane and get out of Kentucky. Then on this plane, that was slightly better than the 2nd ride i took, I finally came to the conclusion I was no longer in Asheville or NC...and I was headed back to a place I never knew I hated so bad until I was gone for a week. Never know how much you want something until its gone? I believe this time it was never knew how much I hated it. I cant stand this place and upon the arrivel of Monday when the business week starts again i intend on doing everything in my power to leave. It may not be NC where I am going but It will not be here.
I know of 3 sources off the top of my head that I will get into contact with Monday for this very reason. I no longer have anything to look forward to. The trip to NC is over and nothing ahead for me but a distant promise of getting a decent job to live off of. I dont care where I live anymore...Except the west coast. Anything is better than this place now.
I feel different now as I do mundane tasks..same tasks that I did before I left. I feel strange..more awake I suppose. Doesnt matter now because my only focus is looking for a job. No longer is it games I want to play all day for 6 months...only a few friends in this area are even worth talking to now..there is nothing stopping me anymore.
Plane ride 1:
5:30am - I havent been on a plane in literally 8 years almost to the month. I remembered why I liked it. This was tbe best ride of all I'd say..the plane was big as hell..cold as hell...and comfortable as hell.
Plane ride 2:
9:30am - Never been on a small plane such as this one was. I had to go out onto the terminal outside the gate and enter the plane on the step ladder that folds out of it. It was hot..and not so comfortable because the plane was small so the seats were small. The guy next to me was obviously pissed off or something but ended up sleeping the whole hour or so there. It all didn't matter...I was going to be happy for the next week.
Plane ride 3:
9pm - Realization of the fact I was leaving a placee that, by phone and description sounded shitty as hell, but in reality was way better than anything I have here. I looked out the window for a good hour before I realized we were even off the ground. This ride was the realization that I was returning to nothing...I have nothing where I was going and I found this out in full as soon as I stepped onto the plane.
Plane ride 4:
12am - I suddenly realized after being delayed for an hour or so that i had wished the delay was more like a few days. Maybe a few years. While delayed I only wanted to get on the plane and get out of Kentucky. Then on this plane, that was slightly better than the 2nd ride i took, I finally came to the conclusion I was no longer in Asheville or NC...and I was headed back to a place I never knew I hated so bad until I was gone for a week. Never know how much you want something until its gone? I believe this time it was never knew how much I hated it. I cant stand this place and upon the arrivel of Monday when the business week starts again i intend on doing everything in my power to leave. It may not be NC where I am going but It will not be here.
I know of 3 sources off the top of my head that I will get into contact with Monday for this very reason. I no longer have anything to look forward to. The trip to NC is over and nothing ahead for me but a distant promise of getting a decent job to live off of. I dont care where I live anymore...Except the west coast. Anything is better than this place now.
I feel different now as I do mundane tasks..same tasks that I did before I left. I feel strange..more awake I suppose. Doesnt matter now because my only focus is looking for a job. No longer is it games I want to play all day for 6 months...only a few friends in this area are even worth talking to now..there is nothing stopping me anymore.