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[kassu]

What is today..Friday? So that only means to me that active businesses don't usually do interviews on the weekends. Meaning futhermore that I cant really get out of the house until Monday even just to go look for a job. The catoring company place is nice..but jobs aren't regular enough. I need way more. Hell at this point I'd take 2 more full time jobs. I am sick of being home. I would get up at 6 am, go to work until 5..come home to change then go back until 12..come home and sleep until 5 and leave again. Sounds like murder to anyone else but i would no longer live at home like I do now. And that goes for 2 different meanings. It's not like I can just go out and drive..my mind refuses to work like that. If I dont have a reason to go out..I wont. i cant just leave for a while and come back without a logical reason behind it. I never could do that. I need money to go do stuff..and I need a job to go get money. It makes me wonder if my resume or something gives off a "dont hire me and make sure everyone else you know does the same" aura. I looked over it..its flawless. The strucutre is professional...so i dont know what the fuck is going on. I get these up and down times as well. Some times I'm not bothered by the fact I sit at home all day..then like now I cant stand it. I could even take sitting around in some other place..so as I had a reason to be there. I just hate it HERE. So im not supposed to sit around and wait for the job to come to me...fair enough. I go out to look for it..I find nothing..ok...I get into another profession...ok...go out and look for a job in both fields...

So what the fuck am I missing? Did I miss a fucking step or something? Surely someone with a Bachelor of Science in Electronic Engineering Technology AND a fucking Professional Bartending diploma with a licence to do so could find a job? As of the 25th it will be literally 6 fucking months since I've started looking. I have to be doing something wrong...