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this post isnt directed at anyone..but rather at everyone. Everyone I've talked to lately has reminded me of my own thought processes and what or how i would respond to certain things. For example: JoAnn and I were discussing how we would react if either of our spouses had cheated on us. Say if I was married to her and she to I, and by some freak of nature happening she willingly cheats on me..not drunk or raped or on drugs..sober and willing. I first asked what she would do if her husband were to do such a thing. She said ler the other woman have him and say fuck you then leave. Me...I would simply kill my wife. End of story. Yes kill. If you dare to give your soul to someone in one of the biggist promises there is in existance, and you break it you dont deserve to live. She would leave..I would kill. and I would also kill the man she slept with..assuming he knew we were married and all. If he was some random guy and not a close friend I'd probably leave him out of it. She would die. But this only applies to marrage natrually. if some chick and I were just dating then i would simply get even and ruin her life for a few years...some how..ive done it before..and i enjoyed it.
I told this to Mel, a friend of mine, and I'll say it here too. Something ive lived by since roughly 7 years: If you want nothing to do with me...goodbye. If you do...hello. Either way im going forward and nothing will stop me. I dont sit in grieve anymore. Either come alone for the ride or get the hell out of my way. End of story. I dont have time for shit, drama, uncertainty, or jealousy. Ive seen all within the last year more than i have before since my first girlfriend. She created the way I am now. In some ways I should thank her..in others I should put a hit out on her. (Shes the one I ruined for 2 years btw). She was one of the biggist drama queens ive ever known...though i think there is a new champ lately..no Mel, not you :-p. But anyway i think one of the most valuable tools ive picked up from being fucked over my whole life is the ability to gain trust easily and manipulate people. Yea it sounds bad but its the truth. If you dont like it..then deal. I dont sugar coat this shit. not anymore. I can lie, cheat, and steal with the best of them. I could tell you I am a woman to your face and have you actually consider the possibility. Its a good as hell power to have..especially in a field where you interact with people all the time...aka Bartending. Its also a terrible power to have as your friends tend to keep their guard up. And I hate that but honestly I dont blame them. Hell I would keep my guard up to a person who could easily want to hang out with me and even be a roommate or something one day and the next simply drop those feelings and hate me just because he felt like it. I can do it. Ive done it. Its saved my ass many times. It is a gift to be so emotionless and apethetic and at the same time have the...oh what is the word...openeness and demeaner of a gay man. A friend of mine calls me the lesbian because i think like a woman and act like a woman sometimes..but some how I still keep my masuclinity and such where it is obvious i am not gay in any way shape or form. Yin and Yan right? A masculine woman with a dick...but is a guy..but..isnt.....most women I know consider such a concept perfection. Well its starting to look that way as I constently remind myself of a saying I think of alot...and try to shape around...i dont know where i got such a saying...i honestly think i just came up with it one day...it doesnt matter:
A woman who thinks is an asset to the world.
A woman who thinks too much is a threat and danger to herself and everyone around her.
and what i mean by threat is lack of common sense...emotion driven..ect..
I told this to Mel, a friend of mine, and I'll say it here too. Something ive lived by since roughly 7 years: If you want nothing to do with me...goodbye. If you do...hello. Either way im going forward and nothing will stop me. I dont sit in grieve anymore. Either come alone for the ride or get the hell out of my way. End of story. I dont have time for shit, drama, uncertainty, or jealousy. Ive seen all within the last year more than i have before since my first girlfriend. She created the way I am now. In some ways I should thank her..in others I should put a hit out on her. (Shes the one I ruined for 2 years btw). She was one of the biggist drama queens ive ever known...though i think there is a new champ lately..no Mel, not you :-p. But anyway i think one of the most valuable tools ive picked up from being fucked over my whole life is the ability to gain trust easily and manipulate people. Yea it sounds bad but its the truth. If you dont like it..then deal. I dont sugar coat this shit. not anymore. I can lie, cheat, and steal with the best of them. I could tell you I am a woman to your face and have you actually consider the possibility. Its a good as hell power to have..especially in a field where you interact with people all the time...aka Bartending. Its also a terrible power to have as your friends tend to keep their guard up. And I hate that but honestly I dont blame them. Hell I would keep my guard up to a person who could easily want to hang out with me and even be a roommate or something one day and the next simply drop those feelings and hate me just because he felt like it. I can do it. Ive done it. Its saved my ass many times. It is a gift to be so emotionless and apethetic and at the same time have the...oh what is the word...openeness and demeaner of a gay man. A friend of mine calls me the lesbian because i think like a woman and act like a woman sometimes..but some how I still keep my masuclinity and such where it is obvious i am not gay in any way shape or form. Yin and Yan right? A masculine woman with a dick...but is a guy..but..isnt.....most women I know consider such a concept perfection. Well its starting to look that way as I constently remind myself of a saying I think of alot...and try to shape around...i dont know where i got such a saying...i honestly think i just came up with it one day...it doesnt matter:
A woman who thinks is an asset to the world.
A woman who thinks too much is a threat and danger to herself and everyone around her.
and what i mean by threat is lack of common sense...emotion driven..ect..