There are oceans and waves and wires between us

[kasota]

I'm feeling really lonely right now. At this very moment right now, not the week or day in general. It's 2 am, I should be in bed, or at least listening to am radio or playing about my guitar. But i've been thinking about my past of late, and how many good people i've driven off. It's not a chapter of my past I care to delve into too much, but this summer it has kept on sneaking up on me, time after time. I've been seeing and talking to people I haven't in years, knowing that in one way or another I abandoned them. It started around summer celebration, people I had not seen in quite a while started popping up at subway. i'd even hear the odd reference to this person or that person from people I didn't really know. I'd see some of their names in the newspaper, one in particular who I managed to scare half to death some how. Some of them would contact me, I even contacted some of them sometimes. It was strange, talking to them. It made for an interesting summer though. But right now, there are a few i'd like to sit and eat ice cream with and talk about what the perfect chorus to a song is. There are a few i'd like to drive around with, just to talk and pass the time. There are a few i'd like to have known better, or at least have had them know me better. I let all the wrong things drive me away, and for it i've managed to miss out on the faith, the 2 am ice cream runs with star counting, the advice on what kind of unabashedly romantic thing I should do for my girlfriend, and how you just can't beat The Cult's Billy Duffy on a riff, and they would sing my songs with me as loud as could be.
The funny thing is, no one who reads this will know who i'm talking about, at least I think. You can place your guesses, but i'd doubt you'de be right.
It's so funny that it makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time.
They really brought the good out in me, each in there own way.